I wish I could tell everybody that...

that I am gay.

I wish I could tell everybody that I like them all even though it may not seem like it because I have social anxiety symptoms

I'm not a failure no matter what they think

I have struggled. Deeply. I have done things I have to come to accept. I barely know myself anymore

I am in love with a awesome man but my family won't accept happiness for me.

I think about suicide at least once a day every day

not everybody, only my ex fiance and his family that my intentions were always good! that i tried my best and that im not the person they say i am! i know in their hearts they know that but i still want to say it to their faces

a lot of times I'm not ok. a lot of times I get stuck going in circles trying to understand why someone did something and how things could have been different. and during those times, it doesn't help to talk down to me and tell me to get over it. that makes me feel bad for feeling sad and then i feel like no one understands me or cares adn i want to cry. i feel like a bad person in that moment who no one wants to be friends with. i want to tell people that your time frame for getting over things isn't mine and that that doesn't make me a bad person or someone who gets attached too easily...i'm just trying to deal with my emotions the best i know how(and sometimes, i fail) but dealing with them is how i get past them. i can't ignore them and hope they will go away. they won't that way.

They hurt me.

I love them a lot