I wish I could tell everybody that...
I'm pansexual and I crossdress and it doesn't change a damn thing because at the end of the day people are just people. @mylifeaseva
I'm not really that good with everything to put up with all the expectations they set upon me.
@affectionateSpruce9990. No one can succeed all the time. As long as you tried ur best is ok.
@Toomistarry I wish they knew that saying you did your best wasn't always equivalent to I succeed.
Thank you for your kind words, really. :)
I dun mind making friends with lesbians because they are all human being
I don't want to be here anymore , I want to be invisible, if I didn't have children I wouldn't bother getting out of bed again.
That i miss my ex girlfriend and l need her.
I wish I could show everybody who I really am without feel like they gonna hate me
@Skel This. I can identify with on such a deep level. It's so hard to be yourself when everyone is telling you that the true you is wrong, bad, or stupid. I wish it was different. It's so soffocating.
@Penolopee
Yeah it is. For example, a long time I stopped using dresses cause I remember I said I don't like them when I was a kid but it what's part lie cause I do. Then a few years later when someone asked why they never see me with one I lied again and say over and over "I don't like them cause they make feel so girl-ish" to every people I met when they asked. And when I tried to use a dress I could feel the eyes of people over me like they were saying "why are u using a dress? Don't you say you don't like them?" And feel overwhelmed by who I was became to the other people cause it was really hard to say "I like them, and I like to look girl-ish sometimes too, and I have the same dream every girl have about they wedding dresses or xv dresses or about any dress to be fluffy and long and beauty " And it's just a few months ago that I feel OK using one and without feel anxious about what everyone thinks of me cause I understood it doesn't matter what they think about it if it makes me happy. But sometimes I do feel anxious again, and then my Bestfriend says to me "don't give a sh*t and use what you want, people are idiots if they try to make you use something you don't want. You are pretty and that's the only important thing" and I feel better then. But it's still hard to me to show them who I am and how I feel, I'm still scared about how they gonna react at me and that.
(Sorry if there are mistakes in my writing, I'm sort of bad at write English cause isn't my first language)
@Skel I understand entirely. I converted to a different religion than what I was raised to believe, and often I get a lot of nasty feedback about it. I know its not their business but it's hard to express yourself when you are under the glaring eyes of judgemental people. It's like we aren't allowed to change or grow, we aren't allowed to be different. It's so hard. I wish there was some way that we could make it stop.
If we only had more support it wouldn't be so bad, but i feel when I am fighting my battles, it's always me against the world. I feel like noone is ever on my side, and I wonder if it's because I'm a bad person.
And your English is fine btw :)
@Penolopee
Yes, it feels like that, it's something so heavy to live with it, but something really great is to finally find people that understand it, that had live the same in so different ways and that show you you're not alone, you're not the only living this and that someone is always there to support you. Even if we wish that those people were our family or friends or people we love and want to understand us, but I'm sure some day we can be like we want and they will be with us withou judging us
And thank u, I'm trying to improve on my English writing skills when I can :)
I am unhappy , anxious and not up for this life
I wish I could tell everybody that I have days where I still think about harming
My daughter had an abortion ....it brought up my past and I wasn't in control I had no choice .😥
I wish i can tell them how miserable i am, how I drown in my tears every night when it's dark and everyone is sleeping, how I've been having panic attacks every night for past two weeks, I wish i can tell someone that I need a hug and reassurance desperately.