@Toomistarry I wish they knew that saying you did your best wasn't always equivalent to I succeed.

Thank you for your kind words, really. :)

@Penolopee

Yeah it is. For example, a long time I stopped using dresses cause I remember I said I don't like them when I was a kid but it what's part lie cause I do. Then a few years later when someone asked why they never see me with one I lied again and say over and over "I don't like them cause they make feel so girl-ish" to every people I met when they asked. And when I tried to use a dress I could feel the eyes of people over me like they were saying "why are u using a dress? Don't you say you don't like them?" And feel overwhelmed by who I was became to the other people cause it was really hard to say "I like them, and I like to look girl-ish sometimes too, and I have the same dream every girl have about they wedding dresses or xv dresses or about any dress to be fluffy and long and beauty " And it's just a few months ago that I feel OK using one and without feel anxious about what everyone thinks of me cause I understood it doesn't matter what they think about it if it makes me happy. But sometimes I do feel anxious again, and then my Bestfriend says to me "don't give a sh*t and use what you want, people are idiots if they try to make you use something you don't want. You are pretty and that's the only important thing" and I feel better then. But it's still hard to me to show them who I am and how I feel, I'm still scared about how they gonna react at me and that.

(Sorry if there are mistakes in my writing, I'm sort of bad at write English cause isn't my first language)