Asking for a friend.

I come from a community where eating disorders are kept behind locked doors. More often than not, people who seem to show very obvious signs of a disorder are told "Good, because it'll keep your weight in check."

I'm not exactly certain where I stand as I haven't ever spoken about it to any one but, I can barely manage to get myself to eat some days. There's atleast a week or two every month where I skip almost every other meal because I find myself unable to eat.

My body image isn't necessarily an issue for me, I believe. Unless you consider the random bouts of hatred I feel for myself every time I manage to eat more than I thought I could (rare, but happens).

Does anybody know what this is?

Is it just a phase?

Is it an eating disorder?

Am I on my way there?

I can't really figure whether I'm in need of serious help. Just a little afraid that this might be a sign of something worse coming my way.

Thank you for being a part of this little community. I hope and pray that you find your way out of the dark, regardless of what kind of dark it may be.

Have a pretty day! ✨