Accountability thread 9/2 - 9/8
Hi everyone,
Welcome to the safe space where @Phoenix22k @enigmaticOcean8813 @orangeSpruce9113 and I share our journey together to overcome eating disorders.
Everyone is welcome to join and share their stories and thoughts.
Sending positive vibes and lots of love
Saturday 9/7
Woke up feeling great! I did go to bed pretty early, for a Friday night, but was more excited knowing how I would feel in the morning with a great nights sleep. Had my full body workout circuit and then went for my 5k run.
On my run... well I hit an uneven spot of pavement, fell, and caught myself. My shoulder was NOT happy about this. I said some choice words (that I hope someone heard at 6:00 am). Was still able to return home with a slightly *** knee, and overall.. my time was great for the 5k! So a messy success.
The rest of the morning/early afternoon was good. I went to my cafe and sat outside to read :) Didn't meet my dream girl this time... but there was another one sitting outside reading/working. It started raining though and we went our separate ways haha.
Lunch was good and I occupied myself rather well until about 3:00. Then, ED brain kicked in.
I was just bored, and I knew how I wanted to treat myself on Sundays, and ED brain just said come one its so close have a treat! Well... one thing led to another and I had a binge/purge session. It has been so long since my last it was rather uncomfortable, but it happened. Went out, bought some cookies/ice cream, and well I won't go into the details.
After the session, I calmed myself down and still had a healthy dinner. I know I need good, quality food to fuel myself. I can do fine with each "planned" meal, but just need to still be cautious around my down time.
It is Sunday AM now, and I feel pretty good all things considered. I slept rather well, did an easier workout to modify with my shoulder, and am just feeling motivated to get back on track. I have proved to myself I can have successful days, and as we all know we hit bumps.
So feeling motivated and with a new desire to make a new streak.
@orangeSpruce9113 I am so proud of your success and want to make a little challenge for us if you'd like. You are already ahead of me, but lets make it 5 days with no binge sessions! Of course we can go longer, but lets set this goal for now.
Know that I will be thinking of you when I have these binge/purge thoughts and that you'll be inspiring me to stay on track.
May everyone find success on their path, and return to it if you have fallen off course.
@Phoenix22k
I’m sorry you had to deal with the mental and physical challenges with your slip but I’m extremely proud and inspired by your positivity and motivation to keep going. That’s a very admirable trait to have. And yes, I’d be so happy to do this challenge with you! Let’s shoot for 5 days!
@Phoenix22k
Hi Phoenix,
I'm sorry to hear about your fall! How's your shoulder doing now?
I had a similar experience a few months ago—it's just one of the risks of our hobby! In Italy, we have a saying that roughly translates to “it's the job that gets under your skin.” It's a tricky concept to translate, but it means that when you take on a specific job, you're bound to face certain injuries from it (like if you're a chef, you're going to cut your finger sooner or later). And if you run, you're bound to fall at some point. The hope is that when it happens, you don’t hurt yourself too badly!
I can see a parallel between your fall and our journey through eating disorder recovery.
You fell, but you got up and finished your run. Similarly, in recovery, we might stumble, but we have to pick ourselves up and keep going. We can't let one misstep ruin everything. If we fall, we can't just sit there on the pavement and cry until... well, forever. So, in the same way, if we slip up in our recovery—whether it's a binge, restricting, or whatever—we have to acknowledge it, get up, and keep moving forward.
It’s not easy, but going home with a messed-up knee or shoulder isn’t easy either, yet we do it. So, we need to learn to do the same in our recovery.
I'm really sorry to hear you had a binge episode. Truly. But I can see how you're getting better each time. This time, you recognized what happened, but then you got up, did your best to get back on track, had a healthy dinner, and the next day, you returned to your usual routine. I’m so proud of you for that!
@Turtleonmyleftarm and @orangeSpruce9113
Thanks for the kind words! Yes, it was a slip. But even as far as binge/purge sessions are concerned it was much less than what I had done in the past.
My shoulder is improving, still a bit sore. Knee a little bruised up, but overall I'm doing fine. Just a risk of the hobby for sure! My next obstacle race is Sept 28th so I should be mostly healed by then.
Hi guys! I’m happy to say that this marks day 3 of binge free! I’m feeling so much better, level headed, and clear minded. I will make it to day 5!
@orangeSpruce9113
OF COURSE you will make it to day 5!
You are stronger than you think you are.
But we know it and we're going to remind you how strong and how capable you are.
You rock!!!
@orangeSpruce9113, Wonderful news!!! You will make it to day 5, I just know it!!!
@orangeSpruce9113
Amazing work Ocean! It is refreshing to hear of your success and motivating me as well!
It is so true, one day "clean" really can help build momentum. Sometimes it is just so hard to get that first "day" down.
Keep it up! Thanks for joining my "challenge" and being my accountability partner.
also, I did not mean to leave @Turtleonmyleftarm or @enigmaticOcean8813 out of the challenge. I know you guys have slightly different goals, but feel free to devote something similar to our "5 days"!
Hi everyone,
Here's the new weeks' thread: https://www.7cups.com/forum/eds/General_2454/Accountabilitythread99915_336318/
I will now check what I missed today/yesterday and I will reply to those messages!
Hi my virtual friends,
I'll wrap up this week's accountability thread with a quick recap from yesterday, Sunday the 8th. And then I'll see you on the new thread (I've posted the link here above).
I woke up early, had breakfast, and then walked the dogs before heading out for our Sunday run. As I mentioned before, this weekend's run was in a hilly area that had really challenged me a few months ago. So, when we started, I was thinking, "Okay, I'm going to struggle today. I should go slow, do my best, but I'm sure I won't be able to do much." Yeah, I'll work on my self-motivation in another life.
My husband had to take a 10-day break from running due to achilles tendon inflammation, so yesterday he needed to do a shorter and slower run (both relative terms for him, remember he's a "real" runner not a dummy like I am). When we got to the race, we bumped into a friend who was also nursing a knee injury and planned to run slowly. The two of them decided to stick together for support since they weren’t at 100%.
When the race started, we all found ourselves running side by side. I thought, "Okay, they're going to pick up the pace and I'll lose them." But they didn't. At the 2nd kilometer, my husband turned to me and asked if I was okay and if the pace was manageable. I said yes, but wondered why he was asking. He then told me, "You've never run this fast before. Did you check your pace on your watch?" – I hadn't, and he was right, I'd never run that fast before.
In the end, I managed to run almost the entire 12k with them. I lost them on a particularly steep hill, where I had to walk a bit, but I gradually caught up with them again. I could always see them ahead, and they only finished a couple of minutes before me.
I realized hills aren’t my strength – I jokingly called myself a "flat-earth runner" (poking fun at flat-earth believers) – but I still had my best run ever, so kudos to me!
Thanks also to the good run, I managed to eat 90% of my planned portions. I didn’t reach 100%, as it's still tough, especially with carbs and fats. But I did pretty well. Plus, I knew today (Monday) would involve a bigger meal since it's my 6th wedding anniversary, so I didn’t want to overdo it.
Sending a big hug to all of you! I’ll catch up with you tomorrow!
@Turtleonmyleftarm
Amazing job on the run Turtle! It is really interesting that when running with others we can improve our pace even without knowing. That also speaks a lot of the growth/physical strength you have accomplished! I wouldn't be too hard on yourself for the hills, they are brutal!
Flat earth runners hahahaha. Where I live there are quite a variety of hills but I agree, I'd much rather have the low-grade flat. But, sometimes when I do approach a hill I just think of it like riding a bike, shift to a lower gear, and just keep going. I like to do little "bursts" when I'll pick up the pace for a few strides, then back to slow, then burst. It seems to help.
Your 90% caloric intake is still an improvement and with all the other "little" things you've been adding you are just doing an incredible job.
9/8
Sunday started out well with a good workout and run. I went a bit slower and easier with the shoulder from yesterday, but overall the AM went well. I went to church and afterwards came home to relax. As I mentioned before I wanted my Sunday to be a day where I didn't worry about steps. Despite that it was nice so I still went for a walk, but out of "joy" not because of a feeling I "had" to.
I also did some sweeping/cleaning up of my garage/gym which was refreshing.
My diet was much better and back on track. After lunch I set myself a goal of watching some Football (the NFL season started up here in the states) and while I'm not a HUGE fan of any of the teams, it is still just a neat thing to watch and relax with. I then wanted to do some of my drafting work and found it pleasantly occupying. Before I knew it, it was around 5:00 and dinner time.
ED brain, kicked in a little after dinner. I wanted to get to bed early so I felt refreshed in the morning, I also thought of my "challenge" with orange and I successfully had a binge/purge free day!
It was a little tough, but sometimes the first day "back" I find is the hardest, at least for a few days...
Looking forward to the week!
@Phoenix22k
Sounds like an awesome day! I’m happy you were able to fight your ED brain and complete day 1/5. You got this!
9/9
Hi everyone! Sorry I’ve been so busy. Today was my sister’s birthday and it was so fun AND SUCCESSFUL. This is day 4 binge free! I’m so proud and feel great! Day 5 here I come! I hope you all had amazing days!
Oops I just realized I posted to the wrong thread. Ignore this post haha
@orangeSpruce9113, why is this toe wrong thread? you are doing great!!!
@enigmaticOcean8813 Haha I just meant to post it to the 9/9-9/16 thread. Thank you!
@orangeSpruce9113, 😄😄😄