In need of help or a friend, or something
I've been struggling with my relationship with food for years, I'm too embaressed to say anything about it to my friends or family. It seems like such a first world problem, and it's embaressing for me that I can eat so much and still want more. It's causing problems for me, on the days I don't binge I feel as though I can't hang out with friends because it might lead to me overeating and on the days I do binge I can't hang out with friends because I put away an embaressing amount of food.
I just want a normal relationship with food like everyone else seems to have, but I'm not sure how to eat normally anymore. I hate the way I look and I hate the way it makes me feel. My life revolves around food which makes me really upset with myself that I can't seem to find anything else in life more important.
I guess I just need a friend or something, maybe a friend I can talk to when I want to binge who can talk me out of it who won't judge me, or maybe is going through the same problems. I'm not really sure.