Wanting to recover

I've lived with anorexia for the past 7 years. Every few years, I tell myself I'm going to start eating more and I do. But it's not long before I'm hardly eating anything and excessively exercising again. This time is different: I truly want to recover. But to do that, I know I need help; however, I can't afford to pay for a therapist or specialist at this moment in time because of money reasons. I've been using a couple of therapy apps on my phone that give me support and allow me to talk about what's going on and they've helped me some but I need to talk to a specialist to truly recover and get better. I try not to talk about this with my friends and family because I don't want them to start developing the same thoughts anorexia tells me. I feel kind of alone and isolated because of it, but I am trying to get help.