Screwed up again
I had a video hearing with a disability judge today. I was waiting for the email link and it never came. I called them about 15-20 minutes to see if they sent the link or not. They said it was sent on the 9th. I don't remember seeing anything like that on the 9th so I can only guess it went to junk mail, which I delete every few days since I get so much of it. Now I have to wait and hope the judge will give me another chance. I just feel so bad for wasting everyone's time and once again screwing up. I could have sworn I was told they'd email the day of the hearing. And then to make matters worse I still hear my mothers voice. Laughing at me telling me see I told you, you are a waste of space and can't ever do anything right.
I just hate myself so much right now. And now I have to wait longer to see if one the judge will give me another chance, and two I have to wait longer to see if I can even get disability.