😥😥😭😭😭😭yep! That's the best title I could come up with

Trigger warning - disabilities and some moaning🙂

so the bottom of my spine is broken and not completely fixable. It's been this way for almost 5 years now. I am paralysed from the waist down, and had my legs amputated. I can sit up when I wear a special made brace with metal splints in, that way I can type, and do arts and crafts, I have good upper body strength, but I'm in constant pain, which really sucks🙁 I have 2 wheelchairs, but I normally use the one I can push myself in, not very far. But it feels like I have a bit of indepence being able to move myself. The past week I've had to use the other wheelchair. It has a control on the armres t. I can't use my normal wheelchair cause I'm to weak right now, and the pain is just so bad I can't move my arms and head properly. The doctors said oneday I will most likely become completely paralysed. So I try to do as much as I can, while I still can. So now I'm sad, and worried. Cause I'm not ready to be fully paralysed yet. I'm really hoping with a bit of rest, I can get back to normal. Well not normal, but my sort of normal😞 it's really hard sometimes. This month as been really really hard