Tricked into a platonic relationship
Okay, this is gonna sound crazy, but I feel like my "boyfriend" tricked me into a platonic relationship. Now we live together and I'm so lonely all the time and he doesn't understand why I call our relationship platonic and fake.
We used to work together last year and we were friends. My family lived on the other side of the country and wanted me back home and I was offered a much higher paying job. So a month before I left the state my "bf" and I started dating. It was pretty normal at first! We were 34 and he was still a virgin so not exactly typical but there was romantic stuff going on.
I moved back to my home state, and not a single family member came to visit me. So after 6 months I decided to move back across the country to be with my "bf" and I got my original job back. So now we live together and work together.
We have separate rooms and live as roommates, he kisses the top of my head and that is the extent of anything romantic. This is not what I signed up for. I have asked him why he didn't tell me ahead of time, before I moved across the country, that he only wanted a platonic relationship because that's not something I want. He says he didn't know and that he feels very attached to me so he doesn't see it as a platonic relationship. I mean we're friends, but we basically have a roommate or even worse, a mother/son type relationship. All I do is cook and do laundry. I feel so so lonely and I feel trapped. I have no one to talk to, my own mother won't even call me back. I have no friends, no one to trust. I don't know what to do, or how I keep getting myself into bad relationships. I'm almost 35, so I'm never going to have a family. I feel hopeless.