So I think I found the source (venting, don't mind me)
John04
September 27th, 2016
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So I think I found the source of my depression. It's a combination of genetics, trying to grow up way too fast, seeing people die at an extreamly young age, seeing my family turn on itself, and failing to save two of my cousins from depression (one now is probably dead due to overdose while the other needs to go to a mental hospital but his father doesn't care about him). Now the problem is getting through it, because I think my depression is a very large part of me. And today is feeling especially rough since I'm really feeling the weight of 2 lives that I couldn't save on top of me today.