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Question regarding long term depression
Depression Support / by John04
Last post
 January 29th, 2017
...See more So I've been going through depression about 7-10 years now. I've been doing ok-ish for a bit, but recently I've started backtracking again. I've also noticed some new problems, mainly a very bad reluctance and almost fear of going hang out with friends or to some other social place. I did a little bit of research and found out that that's a few of the symptoms of social anxiety, and I'm wondering: is it possible for long term depression to cause the development of new phsycological problems?
I don't know what to do (vent)
Depression Support / by John04
Last post
 October 23rd, 2016
...See more The person that has been helping me with my depression and has basically saved my life came over today to talk. At least that what I thought, until, after a time, she kissed me. I liked her, and that isn't the problem today. The problem is that I started to melt down. She's joining the airforce, and this was probably the last time I will ever see her, and I broke down into pieces. Now I'm here, just after cutting myself, crying and dying inside not sure what to do anymore or what the point of any of this struggle is. I just mess things up in the end, and I'm tired of this fight.
So I think I found the source (venting, don't mind me)
Depression Support / by John04
Last post
 September 27th, 2016
...See more So I think I found the source of my depression. It's a combination of genetics, trying to grow up way too fast, seeing people die at an extreamly young age, seeing my family turn on itself, and failing to save two of my cousins from depression (one now is probably dead due to overdose while the other needs to go to a mental hospital but his father doesn't care about him). Now the problem is getting through it, because I think my depression is a very large part of me. And today is feeling especially rough since I'm really feeling the weight of 2 lives that I couldn't save on top of me today.
Can long term depression turn into something different?
Depression Support / by John04
Last post
 September 29th, 2016
...See more BACKSTORY: I've had depression for what I want to say is 6-8 years (idk how long since I denied it for so long, only accepted I had it 3 years ago). I've recently done a lot of thinking, researching, and even a good handful of online screenings. With each thing I look into, it's saying I have both bipolar depression as well as social anxiety, and I've noticed I tend to jump between extreams with my mood as well as having a harder time socializing. Before, it was just flat out depression. Is it possible that long term depression can change as well as be the root for other problems?
The only person that knew about my depression is gone.
Depression Support / by John04
Last post
 September 12th, 2016
...See more The only person that I ever talked with my depression is gone. I did something very stupid and it ruined our relationship. Is there a way I can make this up? I have to, or else I'm not getting out of this pit.
Does anyone else feel like suicide awareness day isn't helping them? (Possible trigger warning)
Depression Support / by John04
Last post
 September 11th, 2016
...See more DISCLAMER: I am not planning to commit suicide. I can be classified as suicidal, however. I know that suicide awareness is to try and get people who don't really care about the topic to start looking into it. At the same time, though, when I'm walking around my college, I see things such as "every 15 minutes someone commits suicide" and such, and it really makes it hard to not go into a bad episode when you see how common it is and start wondering if the fight is worth it. I know is more directed to the people that don't know and that we try to fight to be the uncommon number that gets through it, but still, this is just my curiosity wanting to know if anyone else feels the same way and needs support.
Well, this isn't good.
Depression Support / by John04
Last post
 September 3rd, 2016
...See more So I know I have depression and I know I've been paranoid for at least 8 years, if not more. I'm starting to learn that I more than likely have social anxiety as well as a bipolar disorder forming from my depression. Any self help ideas on what to do? Because I'm stumped and I feel weak and defeated because of it.
Should I isolate myself from my freinds?
Depression Support / by John04
Last post
 September 3rd, 2016
...See more So, my depression is completely out of control, and I've also discovered that I more than likely both have a social anxiety disorder, an extream amount of paranoia, and a bipolar disorder that developed from my depression. I want to start distancing myself from my freinds for a few reasons. The first is because I don't trust any of them, even though they never did anything to loose that trust. In fact, one of them has been helping me with this, but I feel like I can't trust anyone anymore. Also, at this rate I feel like I'm just a time bomb of misery. All it will take is one really bad day for me, and I'll end, and I don't want them close to me if and when it happens. Even if it doesn't, I'm becoming completely unstable and I'm loosing control of how I act. I'll go from perfectly fine at one point to just dead in the next, and I don't want any of them to deal with this, especially the freind that has been helping me, because it can take a great deal out of him too. Should I start breaking ties and distancing myself from them?
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