My 7 Cups Dream Journal
Entry 1: The Boxes of Cats
It was a little strange but what I remember most is visiting a house that was in my old neighborhood that I’d recently moved from (it really wasn’t, so dream logic) but I came back to collect something I left or my mother left.
It was very sad and the people who were there now were sort of okay with me wandering around and looking. I kept noticing the signs that I’d once lived there (painted over places that still revealed chipped paint and stuff I recognized from my apartment).
Then I looked beneath a couch or table and found boxes full of kittens. Two boxes were full of meowing kittens in water that the new home owners had no idea were there, and one more box held a very dead cat that was an older one from a previous litter. All of the kittens were starving without their mother and I knew that it was the reason why the older one passed.
The new owners suddenly smelled the dead cat and I took it upon myself to get rid of it. When I came back an hour later all of the kittens were gone, and when I was walking past another house I could see all the kittens. They’d all grown up into adult cats!
I dreamt that I was hanging out with my old friend group at my ex friend's house on a holiday, maybe Halloween. Things were okay, and in the middle of playing games I found myself in a strange improv classroom with strangers. It wasn’t comfortable because I’d just been at a sleepover and didn’t have any shoes on.
I watched a teacher talk the students through improv skits before he told me I was next.
I really didn’t want to but did it anyway, and I started my skit. I was standing in front of a large lamp that would turn on once I spread my arms- I was an angry sun who wasn’t being appreciated over all the effort it took to warm the earth and humans. So I’d stomp off and say aloud that it would be much more impressive sounding if I had shoes on.
It's okay that you didn't go today and regrouped instead.
It sounds like you got some solid work done outside. That is a good check mark for the day.
I do hope that you can get some more solid food. We are going to have some roasted sweet potatoes over brown rice tomorrow for dinner. Keep it simple and healthy.
Good luck with the job developer meeting. Focus on some online jobs maybe. There are some out there which would work. You are going to find something eventually. I promise.
I got a frozen lasagna for dinner that I can have tonight and on the weekend. I can make some chicken and steam vegetables too, especially if I focus on doing dishes starting tomorrow so I can cook more.
The Friday chores were exhausting; cleaning the cans with bleach and a hose while it was so windy made it even worse but I finished it.
The meeting with my job developer was okay. I found a nearby office job that is in my city, plus it looked like I would be a good fit. I discussed it with her, and she had me bcc her on the email I had to send for the position to apply.
My job developer gave me feedback about how my email and cover letter sound too similar and my cover letter wasn’t formatted properly. she said she’d send me some examples so I can get more practice. It was embarrassing but I need to do better.
We set up another appointment for next week on Monday. In my application I said that I could be available for interviews during the weekday on mornings, so I’ve got that to keep my eyes open for too.
I am glad that you found a job that looks like a good fit. Don't worry about the formatting of the cover letter and the resume. It ALWAYS takes a second pair of eyes (or a third or fourth). You haven't put a bunch of them together before. You are going to do great in sending something in. You are very detail oriented which makes you a nice fit for any office.
The food sounds good too. We had our sweet potatoes and rice tonight. They were good. I flavored the roasted sweet potatoes with some lime so they weren't too sweet. But sweet potatoes are a bear to cut. You have to aim for thin ones and have a sharp knife.@integrityblues
That’s good. I’m glad your sweet potatoes and rice were good. My lasagna was okay for frozen.
I’m still very worn out from yesterday, so I did lots of resting.
Hoping that you had a good day today. Mine was rough but I am hoping that a good sleep tonight will set things right. @integrityblues
I’m sorry your day was rough. Sleep should help.
I went to sleep last night with a headache that continued after I woke up this morning. It took me forever to do the little I’d planned. I’d made my bed, took a shower, then went on a walk after my hair was dry.
Still have the headache so I took more Tylenol and I’m going to sleep early. I just want to be ready for my job development appointment.
I hope that appointment goes really well for you. I have been dealing with evening headaches myself. They are no fun. May we both be headache free tomorrow. @integrityblues
My appointment was okay. My job developer showed me how to make my cover letter better, then suggested I send another email to the job I applied to on Friday while explaining I’d accidentally sent the wrong one.
I applied to two other job leads she sent me even though I don’t feel great about them.
My head is much better than yesterday, so I’m hoping that things will continue to get better.
I hope your headaches get smaller and less annoying.
Glad to hear that you moved forward on the job stuff. Each time you are learning new things about how to do this.
I am also glad to hear that your headaches are better. Mine are tension based and basically hitting every night at the moment. But they are okay during the day so I can function. @integrityblues
Hope that things are going okay. I have been thinking about you.
Hey. I’ve just been tired and busy with job development appointments. I took the weekend to try and get some writing done.
I’ve got another job development appointment on Monday and therapy on Tuesday.
All good stuff! Moving in a solid direction. Sending lots of strength and peace. @integrityblues
Thanks bestVase, I’m going to need it.
I hope things are going well.
I am feeling a little stronger lately. I don't necessarily trust that feeling is going to last, but I am going to try to live within it while it does. @integrityblues
Yesterday’s dream was about attending my birthday party only to find that my ex friend was there celebrating her own birthday like we used to because hers was over two weeks before mine and when we were in school she’d mash our parties together on my day, Halloween, which was as stupid as it sounds. I mean at the time it was okay because I was homeless and broke so I’d not be having that great a party at my home so we’d do the party trick or treating and movie night at her place.
But in this dream when she showed up acting like we were friends still and that we’d obviously be celebrating them together like old times I told her no, and to get out of my birthday.
Therapy that day wasn’t very fun. I mean, it never really is but we were talking about my difficulty dealing with people and worrying about getting sick, and she said that we have to focus on not getting drawn into repetition that could lead to OCD rituals. Then we were talking about when I first got sick with my MS, how my massive flare that lead to my diagnosis wasn’t made any easier by a very angry mean customer who basically threatened to have me fired for being so slow (I was having pretty bad double vision at the time and needed to be careful while counting cash and ringing up items).
Today I dreamt that someone was moving on my property and left a massive mess, but I tried to avoid it and leave and instead ran into my younger sister who was freaking out about being made to leave from where ever she was staying.
My aunts got involved and they got my sister and I (for some reason) into a nice hotel. I had to stay with her at first to get her settled but she ruined it almost immediately and had to run back to our room, banging on the door for me to let her in. For some reason it was very hard to use my hands to turn the deadbolt and use the doorknob, like the air was as thick as syrup! She finally got in and when I left to get something I’d forgotten which floor I was supposed to be on and stood on another while talking to these strangers.
Today I’m preparing for my next Zoom call. I’m already not happy because there was some error as she says she emailed me the other job leads during Monday’s meeting but I got nothing but the one job lead and an appointment reminder.
I’ve got a big headache plus congestion and I keep biting my tongue when she suggests I do as she do and stick VapoRub up my nose but I already know that isn’t a good remedy and can cause irritation and a rare form of pneumonia.
After the meeting I’ll be waiting for my grocery delivery from my older sister, and if I get enough dishes done I’ll prepare some of the things for Thanksgiving early. I’m just doing stuffing, green beans, potatoes (mashed or baked), and baked chicken breasts because I already have those in the freezer and don’t want the challenge of a whole turkey.
That sounds like an exhausting, stressful day with lots of dreaming. That is where all of your tension went.
I can understand that having a therapy appointment the day before Thanksgiving is hard. O joy! I had the same thing. It is just very exhausting with lots to process. But we are both moving forward.
It does sound like you are going to have a nice meal tomorrow so focus on that.
The job stuff I know is annoying, but you keep at it. That is impressive.
Happy Thanksgiving! @integrityblues
Yes, the tension sucks and therapy is a hit and miss sometimes with how it makes me feel.
I was able to deal with the meeting today and afterwards I was able to get the grocery delivery and begin working on the food for tomorrow.
I roasted green beans, made the boxed stuffing, and prepared a brine for the chicken breasts so they can soak in it and defrost overnight in the fridge. Tomorrow I’ll cook the chicken with some potatoes and spices. I plan on mashing the potatoes once the cooking is done.
Im very tired but glad I got this done today. I also have to call the dentists about the wisdom teeth removal.
I dreamt that I was watching the characters of Anita Blake Vampire Hunter at a party. I think it was supposed to be an engagement party for Anita and Jean-Claude but there was a subplot where Jean-Claude was being forced to do ballet for everyone. Don’t really know what that was about.
I woke up to start working on the potatoes and chicken but also was sending my holiday texts. I tried sending one to my mom but tried calling her too, then I thought I’d try the temporary number she’d been using. Turns out that my younger sister has that phone and that temp number so I asked to speak to our mom and chatted with her about Thanksgiving and cooking, but also asked about the phone and what was wrong with it. She broke it so she’s going to get a new one to swap her SIM card into at the beginning of the month. I told her that we’d try and talk at the beginning of the month like we planned but to just call me and leave a message so I know it’s her.
In even better news I finally have an appointment for my wisdom teeth removal! It’ll be on the 20th of December so I’ll have time to clean my house and stock up on soft foods.
