I give up!

@RunningWater I could see how you feel with all these people hurting you and what not but do not give up.

@Eunjoo To late for sympathy. I have up already. I'm just going to let myself suffer until die

@RunningWater

Of course it is your choice what you decide to do with you life, and whatever you decide is right for you.

However I just want you to know that we are here for you here, and you welcome to message me to vent. I am sorry you feel your family & friends have invalidated your feelings and experiences. You say yourself you have been through hell, and I can imagine and relate that you feel the people you thought cared should of been there for you to support you and help you. You are strong, and thank you for sharing your feelings here with us, I imagine that took a lot of courage.

@fluffyUnicorns84

You can't help me if I can't help myself

@RunningWater

i feel the same. The positive words don't change anything. Hoping time will fix things... If I am hanging in there, you better too!

@RunningWater

Your pain and disappointment is beyond obvious. I can see how you don't want to hear "encouraging words" after all you have endured. I can respect that. I am thinking about what you wrote today, and I hope there will be changing and positive developments coming your way. So in essence; please don't give up. Things do change.

I can see you are clearly very upset and perhaps you even feel miserable. But you don't have to be, and you don't have to suffer. You could accept LORD Jesus as your saviour and turn to HIM with your problems. GOD can help you. HE can heal you.

♡ You don't have to suffer! ♡

Psalms 73:26 My flesh and my heart may fail, but God is the strength of my heart and my portion forever.

@RunningWater

@RunningWater

Well, look at it from a different perspective, giving up is allowing those people who hurt you continue to hurt you? Letting them carry on hurting you, when actually you can prove them all wrong and build a life for yourself!

Your past is the past, the past are lessons, not life sentences! Don't let your experiences and past define and ruin your future.

its your choice, but if I were you, I'd like to think I'd enjoy proving them all wrong.

@navyTortoise5674 I really don't care at this point. After being raped, shot, stabbed, being in a federal prison with hardcore criminals. Isolated for months without knowing when its day or night. Not knowing the date. Having my own family betray me. Having my friends leave me to rot. Been abused in every single way you could imagine. And being commited for a crime I did not commit. I lost almost all of my heart. My soul is becoming cold as ice. My faith in humanity is at an all time low. After going through all that and not killing myself.

What else is there to do and say?

@RunningWater

I know you have been through some damn terrible traumatic experiences in your life time, and unfortunately you are unable to change this, this is your past, and probably what makes you who are today. Instead of you being so down and out about yourself, why not try and give yourself some happiness? Get some help, there are people out there trained to help you.

You have a life, and life is for living, there are many people in this world who have been hurt and damaged, and find a second chance at happiness, work hard and find peace, sadly there are also people who fight for their life and lose the battle.

Dont give up on yourself, get some help.

@navyTortoise5674

The only hope I have is freedom.

Don't give up on hope, whilst you have hope, you have a chance.

Try not to look back@RunningWater look at tomorrow and how your gonna get there? Take each day as it comes

Take care

Wow. Your life really is a lot worse than I imagined. That really sucks. I can totally get hating society and just not caring anymore, but it's okay. You know.. you survived all that, clearly you are strong. You are very strong and amazing.

I have a few thoughts on that..

1. Everything bad already happend to you, nothing worse can happen, except allowing them to win. Going to lie down now after you fought so much. That would really suck.

2. Your story reminded me of a Bible character. I know what you are thinking, if you aren't a christian you are probally thinking somethig like " oh yippy :( another preach from some high and mighty christian blah blah blah" but that's not what I am trying to do, I am just going to tell you a story about a man it may get long, but I hope you will read it till the end.

I will post the story in another reply because it won't allow me to type that much

@RunningWater

@TallApple138

The story is about a man named Joseph. He was still a young boy, and never did anything to hurt his family. He was a loving young man, but one day, when he went out to see his brothers, they put him in a large empty pit and planned to kill him. His own brothers wanted to kill him, but then instead they sold him of as a slave. Imagine being sold of as a slave by your own brothers, even when you didn't ever do anything to hurt them. When all you did was love them and care for them. Imagine how betrayed he had to feel.

When he came to Egypt he was sold as a slave to an Egyptian. He worked hard for this man, and did his work well. But the Egyptians wife tried to seduce him and when he refused she blamed him, and he was sent to prison. He was thrown in prison because he did what was right and refused to do what's wrong. I am not sure how long he was in prison, but he stayed faithful to God and he stayed positive, and it was rewarded. He was appointed second in command over Egypt. GOD took him from a young boy who's own brothers sold him of as a slave and told his father he was dead to a powerful man. You can read all about it in Genesis 37. ( till Gensis 41 or somewhere around there)

I don't really know what my point is with the story. I guess it's just to show you even if your life is bad, God can help you.

You don't know have to suffer any longer. Just turn to God

That's very good advice @navyTortoise5674

I think proving all those people wrong would be awesome.

I feel the same way too! What's the point of trying to be nice to others, do the right thing or even talk. If your always going to be the shortest stick in the bunch.

@creativePinefish

I give out honey and receive vinegar

@RunningWater

While it is your choice, I hope you reconsider. Stop punishing yourself, you didn't do anything wrong.

@Hopemaybloom

I did a lot of things wrong to deserve this. This is why I was treated this way. I did wrong all my life. And now I have to fix it alone. This is the last time I'm going to help myself. Because I'm tired of helping myself. If this doesn't work out. I'm killing myself on September 5th