Birth control influence in depression?

Hi, I would like to share something. I haven't been actually diagnosed with depression, I just go with my gut and with what I've read about it and I want to tell a part of my story.

When I was 19 I decided to start taking birth control, not only to not get pregnant but because my period is super irregular and painful, I tested two brands and with the second all my issues, emotional and physical seemed to disappear. Last year I quit taking birth control cause I read about the side effects and i didn't wanted to risk myself, but a few months later my nightmare began, all the physical symptoms came back, and then I started to feel depressed as I never felt before. I went back to the doctor and my ovaries and my hormones are completely messed up, so I had to go back to birth control. The doctor said the depression would dissapear along with the rest of the symptoms, but it's not been true at all. I'm still very depressed, and I start having panic and anxiety attacks. There's a lot of contradictory information about this and I'm desperate, i feel that i can't trust the doctors but there's nothing else i can do to fix myself, and there's not even a way of knowing if this is truly related to my depression.