One thing I am feeling sad about today is....
I'm feeling sad that the weekend just started and I already feel like it's over.
I push my friends away even when they try to help. They deserve better than me. I don't want to hurt them like this!
@brightBeechwood7162
They deserve you and will wait for you. I push people away too and feel bad about it just like you. The ones who don't give up on you are the ones you need.
Tired, emotional, and at work when I'd rather be in bed
I disappointed myself this weekend with failure to follow my food plan.
My two boys no longer live with me. Their Daddy basically kidnapped them. It was his weekend and he just didn't bring them back. Since there is quite a distance between us and because we are still legally married and never got an official separation the law said there is nothing they can do. So, my ex wins again. He holds my kids over my head to get his way, whatever that may be at the time. So now I'm sitting here in this empty house and every time I walk past my boys room i am reminded once again of how fast they were just taken from me. The room is still exactly how they left it and I can't bring myself to go into that room. I haven't seen them since they left 3 weeks ago. I had to withdraw them from school and even though I know they are not gone forever, I still cannot help but to feel as though they are. Once again I have failed as a mother and this time the pain is just too much. The house is too quiet and my thoughts are too loud.
I feel like I'll never be able to open up to anyone again.
That i am married with two kids, i suppose to be happy but i am not
I feel like although I am always trying to be there for the people I care about, when they try to do the same I push them away and unintentionally tear them down in the process. I just feel like I am incapable of talking to the people I care about.
@Ivory7114
Hey, conversations are hard, okay? How we manage to vibrate air at each other an even communicate grocery lists strikes me as kind of a miracle.
That being said, is there a particular thing or two you think is standing in the way?
That my boy is talking to a different girl more than me. He already went to her winter formal and yesterday she just texted him and asked if he wanted to go to her prom. He said yes and he's not even taking me to my prom. She has been lying to me and telling him stuff behind my back. I think he's falling for her. I love him so much. He's my best friend. I don't know how he could do this to me.
I'm worried about today. My boss is always watching for with the video. I'm almost panic.
In Ukranian:
Я хвилююся. Мій начальник спостерігає за мною через відеоспостереження
