One thing I am feeling sad about today is....
Missing my ex girlfriend who passed away. I feel so old and unloved and unwanted.
This year is the 20th anniversary of a group of friends that I helped form. Normally this would be a happy anniversary but I am not on good terms with some of my best friends who also happened to be a part of that same group. On that note, also feel I have no right to celebrate it as well as feel ashamed because of the mistakes I have made that have hurt my friends and ultimately gone against what our group believes in. That and I don
@lycan9826 that freaking sucks dude. I wish that I could give some platitude that things happen for a reason and that real friends come back or whatever, but that isn't always true. All I know is that sometimes cruddy things happen for no reason and you just have to keep going so that you can make up with the friends that mean the most to you. I hope that you get through this cruddy part and that the friends you're on bad terms with want to make up just as much as you and that you have healthy conversations about what's bothering you.
Im feeling alone and not good enough for everything... each word gets lost in the echo I could srceam and nobody would hear me
I didn't realize sooner how bad my family is and its too late to get away.
Of being me
More angry actually, i feel like there's an itch in my head that i can't get out. i feel so fucking agitated and annoyed for no reason. I'm so angry.
Whether I will have a good day. I feel my anxiety is coming just cuz I left work earlier but had appointment . Why should that give me anxiety and cuz supervisor isn't in I don't know how I get on or feel .
That holiday is coming up, the yearly reminder of how unlovable, unworthy and unacceptable I am.
That I am me
That my dreams are hopeless and impossible. I'm unhireable in the industry I want to get into as well as any industry, I'm the bottom rung of the social ladder, I can't be with anyone my heart wants and I have to live a life without my best friend in it and it hurts :( Honestly, I have nothing to look forward to as no matter what I want the answer is always the same :(
How lonely I am. Ive always been alone and depressed, but its gotten so much worse after graduating college. I lost touch with the few people I knew. My depression has spiraled out of control. I have no one and Im miserable.
It was just the fu..ing door bell.. constantly overwhelming fear Flashback . I tried to fall asleep I finally felt asleep after.. Idk after a longer time ...might I sleep an for an hour nightmare boom welcome back in constantly overwhelming fear... I just want to shut down the voices in my head I'm so tired and frustrated Okey I'm not sad but I wish I was its easier to handle... F..k PTSD I hate it I'm so deep down I just want to knock out my mind
