Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
Lost and alone!
@ChasingMyDreams5
hi...you're not lost and you're not alone, would you like to tell me about it? I'm Liz, I'm 43y, married from Pretoria. I have been battling anxiety my whole life but had a Major depressive episode after the death of my dad 6 years ago. I battle to go through the motions day after day but there are things that make it worth it like my kids, my pets.
@Lizdoc
thanks for the message and sharing your story. Sorry about the loss of your dad.
I just have been very down lately mainly because I feel alone in every way...family...friends...intimacy. Like I have no one to talk to and or turn too. Today I was 7 hours late for work. I feel bad because I lied to my staff and said I was at a meeting all day but in all reality I was at home in the bed because I could not get out the bed. Lying and being late to work did not make me feel good at all. But having those extra 7 hours to think/reflect, relax my body and heart and speak with my counselor made me feel so much more relax. I needed it, I was so anxious, and overwhelmed and just did not have any motivation. I was mentally not in any shape to be at work. I have been being very late to work for like 3 weeks now because of depression and anxiety. I am afraid I am going to lose my job. I just hope my energy level and happiness gets better so I am able to get out of the bed and get to work on time.
@Lizdoc pm me you sound like you may be able to listen
@ChasingMyDreams5 Please don't feel as if you're on your own! We're all here to listen and support you. We care about you and your happiness!
I feel good today. I've been productive this past week and no longer feel stressed out, due to homework deadlines or due to working a job I disliked strongly.
@safeandsoundta I'm so glad that you're feeling so positive. 
Doing things that ignite your passion and avoiding things that bring you down can have such a profound impact on your life. Keep the faith xx
@beautifuldevil You're totally right about that! It is such a positive experience to do that and I'm happy things have changed for the better.
Feeling awesome today! :D
@beautifulBreezeMon that's great news
@beautifulBreezeMon awe! Thank you for making this awesome post! HUGS! 
Today I feel okay...and my thoughts went down cause in the night of sunday saturday...there was a crime right under my house and I heard everything. Really everything...the positive thing: I'm glad to be alive. The negative thing is...someone died...I'm exhausted and it feels like it is getting worse from day to day. I try to keep on.
I feel down today...I feel like every time I try and better myself it only ends up getting worst because something always messes it up... I feel like I am not worth being here and I am only the black sheep of my family. I feel like my roommates only see me as a maid to clean up after them and that no one cares about my feelings or how I think.. I have cried today and have only been down and having panic attacks all day.. my mind is confused and I don't know what to do..
@XxthelightxX I am so sorry that you are going through so much all at once. 
You are really brave to speak out about it. I want you to know that you are not as alone as your pain makes you feel. You are valid and you are worthy. Please PM me if you need to talk. Oh, and take a look at my profile picture (Life is tough, but so are you)
Just completely done with it all. Yesterday I was hospitalized for suicidal thoughts and today I've learned that my uncle has had a massive relapse after being sober for six months.
@Mayzy I'm sorry that you're facing such a tough time You should know that you are not alone and you are stronger than your pain makes you feel. PM me if you ever need to talk xx
today I feel even more lonely and lost than usual . Today is the birthday of my husband . he had gone drinking with friends in the morning . when he came home drunk , I asked, " why do you not want to celebrate this day with the family ? " . he replied , " I did come celebrate . " always like this. he has things more important than being with me and our child . sometimes I think , " maybe I was not good enough for him ? " . birthday celebrated with the family and loved ones , right? I feel useless and stupid . and in all my fault again ( so he says )
Sorry for my English
@Katya88 it's not your fault! Your an amazing person! What he choose to do are his actions you can't change people all you can focus on is you and your choices. I am sorry he treats you like that... I will pray for you
It was been another roller coaster day. I am so exhausted of having been depressed for so long and not feeling much relief. I feel like I should learn to try to accept it, but I want to believe that happiness is really possible again. I keep trying day after day and failing. I am so scared that this state of being is permanent
@bestVase7265
This state isn't permanent. Please keep believing that happiness is there for you. Keep building your self up physically and mentally. Try to do things that makes you happy. Try something new. Leave people that try to bring you down as they would make the feeling worse. It is okay to backslide in the process of finding yourself, as long as you do not let that backslide bring you down. Pick yourself back up and continue. You have that state of happiness waiting for you.
For now, here's a hug for you. *hugs* 😃
The one good thing is that I don't have many people that bring me down, just circumstances and my fears for the future. I am doing better than I few days ago but live in constant fear of the next bad wave. @Chimmysmallz
@bestVase7265
Fear is good. Fear could be healthy. But fear shouldn't be allowed to control your situation. You should be the one controlling it not your situation controlling you. You should be happy. Really happy.You need to accept that you will or could backslide into depression and sadness but you should not let that bring you down. When you backslide, you pick yourself up and try again. Congratulate yourself when you make progress and try again when you backslide. You have only one life sweetheart, live it to the fullest.
you could get a journal. Write down the things you are scared of, write down the things you want to improve on and write down your goals. Try something new. A new exercise routine perhaps -dancing is excellent- or you could try doing things you used to like or a whole new set of activities. You can't fear something that you accept. Accept that you are human and can make mistakes. Accept that you are human and you have to be happy.
You could also talk to any listener here. They would be happy to listen. Here's a really tight hug for you. *hugs* 😃
Thanks. I am trying to do all of those things. My biggest problem is that I can't seem to accept. It makes me so down on myself that my mind won't seem to let me do that despite trying really hard. I know all that I can do is keep trying, but the depression spirals out of control way too easily.@Chimmysmallz
I'm hoping to mainting this feeling of positiveness that i am currently feeling right now. Just hope i won't burn and crash.
@imtiredofliving I am so proud of you for being optimistic. I hope you do real wonders. You are the best!
Today can be a good day. I just need to get out of my head.