Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

I'm feeling slightly pissed off today, and a lot of different mixture of emotions...

My workplace had phoned me up, notifying my changes of times the very last minute, which kind of set me off since it had suddenly been thrown in my face.

another thing; around two weeks ago, my boyfriend had broken up with me the second time. Yes, this was the second time he did this to me. Of course, I felt devastated, but not as much as very first time.

The saddest thing that had occurred to me was the fact that we were extremely close friends beforehand, and that we shared different interests. I did offered a re-newed friendship to him, but he refused as he was experiencing overwhelming guilt of breaking up with me, I guess. Now that friendship is forever lost...

hello everyone.. :) just wanted to say hi .... ok freee hugs to all <3 :d

Sick and tired but can't sleep. Exhausted and lazy because I skipped the gym tonight. Fat and worthless. I just want to disappear but I know that would cause worry. I'm just so done with life. I'm tired of others expectations for and of me.

I was a little sad and confused today but I am starting to feel like there may be hope.

I feel like dying. Not dying actually but just not existing anymore. I don't want to hurt everyone around me, and I'm too scared to ever put myself through the pain of dying and finding out what's out there in the unknown, but I can't do this anymore. I feel trapped. Doing this is like banging my head against a wall. I've felt this ugly feeling that is my depression for as long as I can remember and nothing works. Therapy hasn't helped. Medications haven't helped. I feel like I was born broken and there's no fixing me. I feel sick and horrible like every cell in my body is vomiting.

Also hi I'm sorry I'm new here and that's a hell of a way to make an appearance I apologize

I feel numb to the core, like there's a weight going from my chest to my throat, inhibiting me from breathing properly. I feel weak, aching, heavy. Everything hurts and simple activities seem so hard for me to do. I feel invisible, or that I should be, because I don't want anyone to see me or deal with me and my dumb ol issues.

I feel unnecessary and unwanted. I spent the day at work, didn't speak with any of my co-workers. Kept checking my phone for texts or notifications, nothing. Came home to my empty house, and watched tv until I moved to my bed. It's been a lonely day today.

I want to lie in bed and pretend the world doesn't exist.

I want to self harm until the point where I feel numb.

I want to throw away my medications.

I want to run and dive off of a cliff.

I'm not doing any of those things, I'm out living my life and trying to feel positive.

I'm going to beat this.

I'm going to feel okay again.

I'm trying so hard every second of everyday.

I'm going to keep trying.

To to everyone else reading this, keep trying, keep getting better.

Today I don't feel so good, kinda feel down in the dumps. Ive been quite good recently. Anyone else feel like they don't have any motivation to do anything?

I am not feeling well my boyfriend last night fight alot and he is still angry I feel so lonely I have no interest in me I have complex for me I don't love myself