Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
Not grate, but compared to yesterday, today I'm happy as an Easter bunny... my comparisons are grate, too, as you see
I have been battling depression for a long time and I believe anxiety has come into play as well. I thought I could battle this alone and in my mind I was winning, but I've seen my motivation diminish, love distance and a feeling of hurt that I can't shake. Creativity only makes it worse
Truthfully, I feel guilty. I feel like I have no right to be depressed. My home life is great - I have a beautiful daughter and a wonderful husband, but the rest of my life is getting to me. I have always battled depression. I have never had friends. I never found my "tribe". The few friendships I have had, I feel like I have had to do all of the work - I do all of the reaching out, all of the effort to maintain contact. At this point, I won't do it more than a few times before I let go. So I have no friends to speak of. My job is socially isolating, and the few people I do interact with during the day only talk to me because they have to. I have been pretty firmly rebuffed more than once. The thing is, I'm not socially impaired or anything; I'm just no good at small talk and chatting. I don't want to talk about what was on TV last night, or the football game last weekend; but I'll talk all day about philosophy and books and music... if I could ever find anyone who cares about those things, and who understands why they're important.
Sorry for offloading. The further downside to having no friends is that I have no one to talk to, and so when I start talking it gets out of hand.
@DominoScout I can relate because I'm also a wife and mom so it's okay to offload. I can tell it's a difficult time and understand where you're coming from. You're not alone on this journey so from one depression survivor to another we will see the sun shine again...
I know what you mean. I have an awesome husband and 2 daughters who I love to pieces, even if they do fight all day (toddlers what can you do? *sigh*) I don't have any friends either because like you, I do all the work plus I have no way of meeting anyone since I'm a stay at home mum. So the only adult I really talk to its my husband and occasionally my mother.
Flat, empty, alone, and I like I don't matter to anyone, really, even thought I count them as friends. I feel like could disappear and people would notice the loss and just move right along in their lives because nothing about me matters to them.
@salamanderarmy I know the feeling from one depression survivor to another you're not alone on this journey. We all have daily struggles and keep pressing forward.
Anxious. Irritable. Sleepy.
I don't see the point in anything anymore I'm so freaking unhappy and I can't hold on much longer.
@noelle15 keep holding on. I'm going through a rough time too and I try to remind myself of the times I did feel good, fulfilled, like there was a reason to get up, wanting to get up and live my day. Because remembering that is knowing you are capable of happiness and you can get back to it eventually. Hope you're reaching out for support.
Somehow when I watch Monty Python I become happier than I've ever been.
Becoming self aware and positive is fun
I totally agree @Kittypie27 and understand. Keep pressing on!
I feel lonely , disappointed, hurt ,and stress.
I just started a relationship that I feel very unhappy about it. Feel like I'm the only one that actually working so hard in the relationship and on the other hand my boyfriend is like I don't give a shit. It crazy to say that many people would say, you just started if he not the right person then why not move on? I believe walking away from a relationship is just easy. And I alway like to keep working on my relationship until it come to the point that there nothing we could do to save it. Or maybe I just don't want to see myself dating from one guy to the next. But it frustrate me when I feel like I'm the only one that care and show how much love I put into it.
I feel a lot better today.
@QuietPastelRain
👍 hope u feel much better