Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
I cant describe how terrible i feel and how much im struggling
@kail37
I hope by this point you're feeling a little bit better; I'm sending all my love your way. Do know that you're safe here, to talk through anything, to rant, to say as much or as little as you'd like. Please keep us updated, little flower.
i'm here, i'm not sad and i'm not happy. i'm just here, which is okay because it's better than being sad, but i'm scared. i'm scared not for my safety but for my future interactions and test scores and how people with perceive me and whether or not i'll achieve anything good in life. so, i'm here and that's okay.
@HeartOverMind2201
Sometimes, just being here is okay. It means that you've taken all life has thrown at you, and you're still here. Even if your mood isn't swinging one way or the other, there's a small comfort in the contention.
It's natural to worry about future stuff. But for right now, you're here, and everything's okay, or at least not bad; little victories like that are welcomed every now and again. <3
To day I feel afraid and on edge. I don't feel like I can trust anyone not even myself. I am a prisoner and my own mind the prison my thoughts the chains that hold me. I often wish I could sleep forever just to escape. It's like I am running away from myself but it's pointless to run. I hate myself to the point where even my own reflection makes my stomach churn.
@Theuglyduck
These days can be the hardest, that's for sure. I know what it's like to loathe what you see in the mirror day in and day out. What are some things you enjoy doing, that bring you peace and solace? Today may be a good day to practice some self care; treat yourself to a nice bubble bath, or go to your favorite area, buy yourself that thing you've been wanting for a while. It's not a cure, but a distraction. We're our own harshest critics; we're harder on ourselves than anyone else will be.
Do know that you're seen as lovely and wonderful, especially here. We adore you. <3
Today I feel surprisingly lonely, considering how many people I've been around today.
My fiancé has been so busy with work that we haven't spoken much this week. Today we got to talk for an hour and it was wonderful, but then he had to go to sleep because he has a super early day tomorrow so I'm alone again.
The semester starts on Monday, and because last semester was so hard, I'm worried that I won't do well.
All of of this has just made me rather sad.
@braincheese
With depression, some days absolutely feel like this; no matter how many people we're around, it still feels as though we're the only people around. It's an unsettling feeling to say the least. It can be even harder if your spouse is unavailable, too. Admitting this takes strength and humility.
Not all days are going to be good, but not all days are going to be bad, either. Just remember this, okay? And never be afraid to reach out on the bad days. Making it through them just makes life more worthwhile; eventually the clouds will give way and the sun will come once more.
You're lovely and valued, and I'm sure you're going to do great this next semester, especially if they're different classes. Things like that vary from one semester to the next. I'm sending all my love and good vibes your way; you're amazing. <3
Most days I feel like I have no power in my own life. Winter Quarter just started on Tuesday & I could only make it to a full day of classes once this week. I'm so ready to move into my apartment with me boyfriend because he helps me forget what makes me sad, even if he can be a trigger sometimes. Dorm life is great, but having depression mixed with anxiety doesn't make for a great combination when you constantly have to be around people at your low points. Things are getting harder, but at least I have some things to look forward to.
@TeaConnoisseur7, you are so strong and amazing, you don't even know.
Sometimes it takes all of the effort in the world to get up and go to a full day of classes. That is something you should be super proud of! (I know I'm proud of you!)
Depression and anxiety are super hard while in college; it's my hope that you'll feel a bit better when you move in with your significant other.
There's hope laced in nearly every sentence you gave. I adore that. Please keep me updated, and know that you're strong, and that I'm proud of you, and that you're going to make it <3
Absolutely miserable. I haven't slept properly in over a week. My body hurts and I have no appetite. I'm always anxious and stressed out and worried. I hate it
@impartialComputer9780
That sounds really exhausting. Has something been weighing in on your mind recently? Make sure to take some time for yourself, to heal, to focus on you. You're lovely; please reach out if you need anything.
I am having a hard time emoshnolly. am working on getting a new IHSS worker. right now my mom is my IHSS worker. am also working with agentseys to get me moved out i have specail needs on top of my depression and angziuty. my mom has not been geting jobs done that i need done. and i am the boss when it comes to IHSS. this all started with her when i told her i wanted to move her to part time cause of her health. she thinks am trying to take money from her. at that time i wasnt but now i am cuse shes tilking to me very meanly. and tilking meanly about my specail needs. i fill like she is treating me like a peace of trash
@jenniferlobsinger77
It's good that you're going to be under new care; whether or not it's for health reasons (regarding your mother), it's still important that you be treated importantly and with respect, because you absolutely deserve it. Keep strong, and keep us updated!
I feel a shadow of loneliness since my closest friend has been hospitalized I worry about them and I wish I could visit or something but I don't know what hospital
@Theuglyduck
I absolutely understand this one; it can be so hard to see your friend struggling, but not know how you can help. If your friend is local, you could try calling different hospitals in the area. If your friend is somewhere else, the most you can do is send good feelings to them. It's very, very hard, but you're really strong for holding together.
Keep us updated on your friend, and don't forget to do self care, alright? I'm sending all of my love your way.
Today, i feel really down and lonely. i am mourning my old life and regretting all of the things that i took for granted. i had friends and i had happiness. now, because i have pushed them away and because we are at a new school, i am all alone. i was looking at a picture of me and my best friend last night and i fell asleep almost in tears. they have all moved on and they have new friends. good for them, but i cannot connect with anyone anymore.
@energeticSpring4866
It can be really hard to move to a new place, especially if you don't know anyone. Thing is, even if you have moved, have you moved on from them? I'm sure you still have a place in their hearts; it's never truly too late to go back and try to talk with them once more.
I do understand that feeling of loneliness and isolation, though; I wouldn't wish that on anyone. I'm glad you're here. Feel free to reach out to someone if it becomes too much. Keep strong, little flower.
Not really sure how I feel... But I nearly cried yesterday when someone told me to smile... So... these past months have been so confusing for me and I'm suffering.. I just want it to end!
@lovingPine3496
Ah, I understand that completely; it's like, you didn't even realize you were sat there with a frown or unhappy expression; it's when someone points it out that it's like... "Damn, I guess there's something wrong."
What has been happening these past few months?
You are not alone, sweet pea. We're glad you're here.
