Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?

I feel somewhat okay, but slightly anxious and overwhelmed as well.

I'm not sure if it's depression..but I feel emotionally tired. Maybe it's because of the current situation I am in but I feel like leaving class so I can go home and take a sleeping pill so I can stop thinking. I just want to sleep and stay under my covers, close all the current, and turn off all the lights. I feel that's the only way I can stop overthinking everything...I just want to sleep all day.

Emotionally drained

I just feel really lost...like...I'm swimming in a fishbowl and a glass wall separates me from society. They can't hear my screams, they only see me swimming. It's like my options are to drown or to continue like this. I don't know x

Today... Huge pit in my stomach and I don't want to get out of bed.

Fat because I still haven't lost any inches on my waist, trapped in a craphole town and torn. I feel like I'm trying to go one way, but my family keeps pulling me to a way I *know* I won't be happy in, that keeps me in the town I hate.

I feel alone. Its been 8 years since i moved here and i haven't made a single friend. Im lost, scared of everything, scared to talk, scared of what people think of me, jow i look. I can't cope. Im so ashamed.

I want to go to university. Im so scared, people talk to me and I'm so nervous the words wont come out. Feel like im trapped in a deep dark hole. I feel like driving as fast as i can and crashing into a wall.

What helps me a lot is when I'm scared or nervous about doing something I always think of the worst case scenario and work from there. For me when I'm taking on a task at work and I'm worried about doing it. I'm just don't want to mess up whatever I'm doing. I just try and put the brakes on in my head and just trace out what I'm actually doing or going to do. And if I make a mistake I just think who cares. I'll learn from it. Or before I get to that point I'll just stop and ask for help. Some things besides work I'll put off or just break down into sections. Basically I try not to overwhelm myself. And honestly it doesn't work all the the time. It does work a lot though and that to me is a huge relief. I hope this helps a little bit.

I feel numb and i've been crying all day uncontrollably..

It's like you are spinning in darkness slowly and have no control.

Like a a thirsty person in a pool of water all my friends left my school and I'm surrounded by people yet I'm terrified to drink.

Uhh hi... My day was... Different. You know?? My friend almost killed himself last night and I don't know what happened. I get to school and everybody seemed... Unreal... It seemed like people actually saw me today. It didn't matter what group they were in... They saw me... But then I got dumped with the stress and homework and having to carry everyone's problems on me... My friends depend on me and they all want to be around me and some get mad when I can't get to them. It's hard to do that all the time. Then I haven't done any work this week.... And due dates and everything. Then we were talking about world problems... And how Isis burned people alive and the details given by my teacher.... I couldn't sit still... I remember how it used to be... Nothing like how today is.... Nothing...

I cannot imagine how hard it would be to have everyone counting on you. And also to be listening to the teacher talking about the people in so much intense pain. I hope your friend gets the help he deserves and needs. I hope you can get some irl support. Because you sure do deserve that

Well, I had a dream last night...one that makes me too scared to sleep again. It wasn't an ordinary dream...it was a flashback the manifested itself into a dream. It was at my moms funeral...and I was staring down at her corpse...continuous thoughts racing through my head like "this is the last time I will ever see her. She doesn't even look like herself." I broke down crying and then the dream quickly transitioned to someone bringing a puppy to me. He was white and brown. At first I thought was a husky, but it turned out to be a wolf pup. She said to me "this is your son" and the pup actually talked to me and called me mom. I remember his name too...Ender. He could turn back and forth between human and wolf...like a werewolf. Then today, I found out that the person trying to break into my house last night was my brother in law...I am scared that my fiance is not okay, on top of missing my mom, and the whole "wolf son" thing.

I got into a huge fight with my brother earlier today and I've been feeling slightly suicidal since, and even considered cutting again. I'm so horrible.

incredibly disgusted within myself Tuesday night I binged horribly and purged then Wednesday did so well and did not put any calories into my body , did so good all day today until I got home and binged once again I feel incredibly guilty I want to cry

I am so sorry. I have an ED. I know how hard it is. I binge. I do not purge though. But I have starved lots. So I know the pain of it. I know the pain. I know the pain of thinking I have to be thin in order to be okay. And I know the pain of not being able to see how thin I am. I know the pain of needing to eat and eat and eat. I know the pain of feeling I am worthless unless I look okay. I am sorry for anyone who knows this pain. Because it is excruciating. Sending safe hugs for you

I am in even more pain today than yesterday. I actually called someone and asked her to send some healing in my direction. I am feeling huge pain. Seems to be getting worse as the days progress. Yesterday I went for a healing thing. But that just brought up more to deal with. so alone. Just so very alone.

I feel as though I will shatter any minute now, and no one will truly care.

I care <3

I feel horrible. I'm being ignored as usual.

There is no possible word that describes how I feel. But until I find a word that comes close I guess I'll use the word "empty" I am empty.

Don't worry. Its the same here

Today I feel stressed. I feel tired. I just want to sleep. Is all this pain really worth it? I want to be successful but I hate myself because I feel so ugly and bad at everything. But I also feel numb. I feel broken. I feel alone. I have no friends and I feel like I will never be happy. I'm struggling to have hope.

I feel insecure and anxious

Feeling isolated...again.

I feel alone. I feel like none of my friends really care and that I'm just something for when they're bored. I feel like I am hopeless and pathetic. And that I'll be alone forever. And that everyone will leave.

I feel frightened.

I feel alone.

I feel like a liability and unworthy investment of energy to those around me.

For once I feel okay. It's my birthday today and my friends showed how much they care about me when I feel so alone. That will change tomorrow but today is okay so far.

Like I really don't want to have to go on. Please don't make me...

I feel like I'm walking on a long rope above a stormy sea. And I don't know how to swim

I feel over whelmed . I feel like everyone has put me on this high expectation that I simply cannot reach . I feel like I'm drowning and everyone is watching expecting me to be able to get myself together on my own while having to do everything they give me and reach all these expectations that they have . If i can't help myself then I fail. I die . But if I keep staying in this position I will want to die . I have no other options . Either I fail for myself or I fail for everyone else .

I know exactly what you're feeling but we'll get through this together.

Hopefully

depressed, scared, alone, sad....

I feel like a waste of space

I feel so old and I haven't accomplished anything

I feel lonely.

I feel scared.

I feel numb.

I have too many secrets.

Im lonely but I like being alone which confuses me.

I feel like I was born in the wrong world or time period.

I never feel like I belong anywhere.

The world is changing. You are not alone in the way you feel. Just hold on a while. Because the world will change. Sorry you are feeling this way.

I feel worthless. Sad. I don't exactly understand how I got to this point. I hate myself for even feeling this way, but I can't help it. My husband thinks I'm stupid and just want attention. I'm tired of feeling this way.