Depression Community - How do you actually feel today?
incredibly disgusted within myself Tuesday night I binged horribly and purged then Wednesday did so well and did not put any calories into my body , did so good all day today until I got home and binged once again I feel incredibly guilty I want to cry
I am so sorry. I have an ED. I know how hard it is. I binge. I do not purge though. But I have starved lots. So I know the pain of it. I know the pain. I know the pain of thinking I have to be thin in order to be okay. And I know the pain of not being able to see how thin I am. I know the pain of needing to eat and eat and eat. I know the pain of feeling I am worthless unless I look okay. I am sorry for anyone who knows this pain. Because it is excruciating. Sending safe hugs for you
I am in even more pain today than yesterday. I actually called someone and asked her to send some healing in my direction. I am feeling huge pain. Seems to be getting worse as the days progress. Yesterday I went for a healing thing. But that just brought up more to deal with. so alone. Just so very alone.
I feel as though I will shatter any minute now, and no one will truly care.
I care <3
I feel horrible. I'm being ignored as usual.
There is no possible word that describes how I feel. But until I find a word that comes close I guess I'll use the word "empty" I am empty.
Don't worry. Its the same here
Today I feel stressed. I feel tired. I just want to sleep. Is all this pain really worth it? I want to be successful but I hate myself because I feel so ugly and bad at everything. But I also feel numb. I feel broken. I feel alone. I have no friends and I feel like I will never be happy. I'm struggling to have hope.
I feel insecure and anxious
Feeling isolated...again.
I feel alone. I feel like none of my friends really care and that I'm just something for when they're bored. I feel like I am hopeless and pathetic. And that I'll be alone forever. And that everyone will leave.
I feel frightened.
I feel alone.
I feel like a liability and unworthy investment of energy to those around me.
