Weekly Prompt #34: What is one difficult life situation you are facing right now?

What is one difficult life situation you are facing right now?

I've been feeling really bad lately in my mind and I don't know how to describe it.  I've felt like I've just been spinning my wheels for awhile (in my mental health progress).

I have a new primary care provider and urologist, so I thought my physical health issues might be dealt with.  They're somewhat well-meaning, but it seems that they can't do anything for me, either, so my physical health problems will continue to be there, too.

What is one difficult life situation you are facing right now?

my grief. my grandma died last Monday night but foud out last tuesday and when i sleep at night i get dreams about her like her being menchond o last night i dremt we were somewhere as a family and i was the oly oe who could see her ghost. i have just desided to lissin to how do i say goodbye on repeate ad just cry it dse nothing yet everything.she was like a 2nd mom she knows me better then anyone even my parents as i told her stuff i did not tell them only person who knows even close to as mutch is my  BF. i miss my grandma so much

@ASilentObserver im just recently figuring out that im trans and im afraid of whats going to happen in the future bc of my extremly homophobic family :(

keeping up my academic performance while working a lot to ensure life expenses.

my parents are retired and can't work anymore because of health issues, otherwise i know they'd support me. yet it feels weird to accept money for them when you're in your mid-twenties.

i have loved my studies ever since i started, studying literature changed my perspective on life and everything. i want to pursue an academic career and hopefully become an influential teacher one day.

we were evicted last year. and i had to stay in the city for university while my parents moved into a cheaper place, but i'm glad they are happy there.

i know i'd move out soon, but having it forced felt so out of place. on top of that, moving is very expensive, so i had to start working right away to support myself and them.

it's my last semester now, i'm trying to find online work so i can balance my time better between studies and work.

i do love what i do, starting teaching was a good start for my goals. but having struggled with extreme anxiety and panic attacks over the summer and finding myself burnout without having time to cope wasn't a great mix.

i started to feel depressed. and having flashbacks and nightmares and difficulty to move, get things done.

trying to recover now. learning to ask for help. learning to open up and share.

it's funny how after all the anxiety, and anxiety is worrying about things that are out of your control, happened so many things that i could control only a little. looking at it in a different way, i sometimes feel like it's been an experience to lead me one step further on the healing path.

i'm not giving up. i'm just getting some rest, and i'll come back stronger.

@ASilentObserver 

My current life issue doesn't seem as important as some other's, but here it goes. I have been having problems with my husband, one of which is his eating habits. Recently, he has been degrading me for not offering him food/ feeding him. Some background. He is an alcoholic. He drinks from the time he wakes up to when he goes to bed (4am- 9pm). He goes in to the office 2-3x a week. The rest of the time he works from home. My schedule fluctuates. I make him breakfast and lunch to take to work. He doesn't always eat the food. For years we ate at 8-9pm. Last fall he wanted food to be done by 7:30pm. When I make food on the days he works, he says he is not hungry. On the days he is home, if the food is ready by 7:35 pm. he says it too late to eat (He uses this as an excuse when he doesn't want to eat what I cooked, which is almost all the time). He has been asking for me to cook him different food that what me and the kids eat. He also refuses to eat leftovers. If I am not feeling well, the kids know to fend for themselves. But my husband gets rude and demanding when I don't offer him food on the days he is home. He said he makes up excuses for me when I have a stomach ache or migraines. Then he complains he has been sitting (drinking and smoking) since 4am starving because I didn't offer him anything, even if I have been busy all day. He claims he doesn't know what there is in the fridge to eat. (He goes in the fridge 10x for wine. He also drinks rum). He has also been picky about what he wants to eat. I have to make 2 meals- one for him and one for me and the kids. Then he doesn't eat all the food I make him, he doesn't clean up, and he doesn't want to eat the leftovers. I try to make dishes he likes on occasion even though the rest of us don't like the same thing, but then he doesn't eat. I know the alcohol has turned his brain to mush and probably destroyed his taste buds also. Before, he used to cook or at least get up and heat up food if he was hungry. Now he just sits there- messing with the computer, in his own world, drinking and smoking. 

I’m faced with trying to deal with losing my little brother to suicide. I also work in a hardware store and every time i see the items he used I have panic attacks. I’m depressed and not sleeping, restless and unmotivated also enormous feelings of guilt for not being there to talk him out of it.

I’m facing a most troubling situation. My 32 year old son finally moved out of the house last July. We were so happy for him finally getting out on his own!

Now I find out that he is planning to move back home in July this year. I tried to raise my children to be independent but they won’t leave home! I also have a 29 year old daughter who lives with us.

Both of my children are slobs. They leave their junk and dirty dishes all over the place. I’m a neat Nick and this makes me totally crazy and makes my depression worse. It’s not easy to live with adult children. Not to mention the extra financial burden of feeding them at today’s food costs and the extra utilities! I just want my birdies to fly away and let me and my husband live our senior years.

Feeling overwhelmed and at my wits end!

What is one difficult life situation you are facing right now?

In February I had to go to the Emergency Room for severe knee pain. I wrecked my knees as a teen and it finally time for knee replacement surgery of my Left leg. I had my Right knee done 14 years ago, so I know how awful this will be. Last time I was gung ho, cant wait to get it done... but it was a nightmare.

This time I have no desire to do it. I'm just going along with what my doctors say. Even then, I want to cancel it and just deal with a bad knee... but that's dumb. When it hurts, it is incapacitating and some times I fall. I got a training roller so I can ride my bicycle indoors. For pre & post surgery physical therapy. I know it will be beneficial over all & my doctor approves.

But it just creates more pain in my joints. I have to push thru the pain now, only to have painful surgery in a few months and then a year of painful physical therapy before I can walk normally.

Thanks for the thread prompt hope you are well yourself!

this week I’m struggling to self care, trying to people please and not take time.

List is long but I want to quit my job and start a trucking business. It will help me save up to buy a house for my girls and hopefully change the tone between my wife and I. It’s just so hard to save up money to buy the truck! Making slow steps towards it by doing deliveries after my full time job a few days a week. It’s really the only thing that’s motivating me to push past my negative thoughts and emotions. It’s saving me right now.