Stuck in the Void

I myself have lived in the darkness, the void for decades. I have no magic answers. But you’re not alone. Keep reaching out like you have here and try and find someone to connect with.

@brokenartlostmind

i felt just like that a year ago.  i'd been socially isolated from my friends for a year and issues w my parents, and i felt e x a c t l y   t h a t.  like this hole of pure black emptiness was just gnawing in my chest and i was losing my mind and nothing would ever get better.  the black hole didn't go away until i started secretly talking to one of my friends, but since they just dumped me i've been a bit worried it'll come back.  so my best advice would probably be having someone to talk to, but also especially getting to hang out with somebody in person regularly, bc for me just talking online was more of a short term solution.  also maybe therapy, because of course this isn't just external stuff for you, it's also internal stuff if that makes sense.

i hope you can try this and it works for you, or that you find something else that does.  also if you need help finding new interests or anything to distract you i could give you book/music recommendations (:

Thanks for your response ✨

Yay I'd really like someone to talk to, but paradoxically I'm really not good at talking even though I try my best... And yeah also meeting people irl is quite complicated for me, I'm currently unemployed, I don't go outside a lot (at least places where there's much people), I'm living on a contrryside, and I'm pretty much scared to go to town alone so...

Oh why not, idk if I'll have the motivation to start a new interest, but yes I could still be interested and give it a try!

@brokenartlostmind

i get that /: i actually made some friends through work- i've been working in a deli for a year, and it's better that it's only part time, less stressful.  a few months ago some customer on the phone started screaming at me and i had a panic attack, and after i managed to get a hold of it a little i wrote a note explaining my situation and gave it to one of my coworkers, and ever since it's just been a lot easier to talk and connect with her and one of our other coworkers

are you into scifi/fantasy books and what music genres?  i can give a few recs for a lot of different rock subgenres

That's cool you made friends :3

I used to be friends with colleagues at my old job too, but since then we're not talking or seeing each other ...

Yay absolutely! That are my favourites genres ✨ and I do love rock too!

@brokenartlostmind

aw i'm sorry bout that.

AWESOME okay so definitely my chemical romance, smashing pumpkins, queen, nirvana, soundgarden, no doubt, joy division, etc

there's this real unheard of uk band called domestic love that is awesome, and a more indie-rock one called bears in trees with a lot of positive mental health songs (:

Wooow nice, from what you quote I only know my chemical romance, queen, nirvana, Soundgarden and joy division (nice taste already) so I'll check out the others, thanks for the reco ✨