Life with BiPolar 1
How bizarre is this disorder? Will never understand it fully and how it deceiving it can be - just doesn't make sense. Once I pick up the pieces from my last episode and get some progress it all crumbles again.
Done giving myself false hope for the future of modern-day "success" and trying to accept the reality of not having a normal life. I have eliminated romantic relationships as it's not fair for the other person to deal with the bizarreness. NO CHANCE for having kids. Protecting friends from myself. Limiting liability all around. In terms of a career, I've bounced around a few paths which ultimately end in some facet due to my disorder. All this may sound extreme but so is this disorder - the need to prevent damage by extreme measures.
Anyways, new here and wanted to find other people out there with the same diagnosis/struggles. It seems the overall vibe I've seen is that the medical field still doesn't REALLY know what's going on as there are so many variables and each diagnosis is unique. I sincerely hope others out there are doing well. This post may sound depressing, but I am alright. Just wish it wasn't so.