@only2or3 Have you shared your concerns with your doctor? Maybe you are under estimating yourself. I know I do that a lot. If you really feel you aren't ready sit done with the doctor and really share your fear.
@only2or3 Don't you just hate it when it feels like they are down playing your problem. Oh here's a book. Thanks now I'm cured. I hate that. Sometimes I feel like my doctor has no clue. For me, I feel like I'm losing my mind and that it's almost life or death. My doctor replied...oh you need to start exercising. I cried. I didn't know what else to do. Putting all that aside. I believe we are stronger then we know. I believe in you. I believe you can do this. I wish I knew how to help. I hope knowing we are here and we understand helps you.