Just trying to get unstuck
Im feeling like I need some help, as all these good things that are happening to me as of late is stressing me out some. When it comes to work, I am estatic about getting the job, but it's finally setting in that I have it. it's leading me to doubt myself asI don't think they made a good choice in picking me. then the fear of messing up comes into mind, making me feel super nervous
When it comes to relationships, I am feeling more and more like i don't want to be in one out of fear of hurting my friendship with my buddy-gal if things go wrong. Doesn't help her father keeps saying things like (congrats you got a job, but it's kinda dead end, you should get a job more tailored to my field.) and her agreeing with her father on some of these points to better take care of myself. this is the first job I've gotten since 2013, mostly cause I kept trying for my field. it just...wasn;t ...working...
After calming down some, I talked with my lady friend about the comments herr dad said and cleared the air I had about that. she wasn't trying to discourage me, but my own self doubt kinda blew the situation up 10X. so now is mostly just stressed out about not failing come monday and the orientation