Just kind of a rant... need to get it out
Do you guys ever get the feeling that everyone hates you? Everything you say is stupid, everything you do it stupid... I feel like this... all the damn time. If I mess up or have a brain fart, I always dwell on that thing for hours... it's so hard to let go... I'm honestly considering switching jobs because I just... I think everyone here hates me
I know it sounds childish... but I cant work somewhere where everyone talks behind my back, you know? Not to mention I just found out my own parents used to talk shit about me to every single family member behind my back... my own parents. I don't get it. I was always on the outside though, because I was the divorced kid. Stepmothers never want someone elses offspring... but how was my dad and biological moms divorce my fault? She tried pushing my out for years and my family saw how badly she treated me... her own family saw it ... sorry if any of this doesnt make sense... and she did push me out. now they have a nice, awesome life and I'm not in the way. And it hurts. Hurts know they simply never wanted me...
@whyohwhy95137 people are mean and egotistic...i hope you find your own circle of good people very soon who will appreciate you and with whom you will feel safe. Gossiping was always on top of my list of despicable things. I am a strong person so gossip or talking behind my back neveraffected me but when i worked i always discouraged gossiping and all my colleagues knew to avoid gossiping about others when i was around. As for your "parents", their goal was to get rid of you and they did...the world is still full of mischievous mean people but my wish for you is to meet good people...i feel you entirely and you are not alone.
@WhiteDrop Thank you :) It boggles my head
@whyohwhy95137 i wosh you strength and self confidence, wish i could give you mine...
@whyohwhy95137 I felt the same way. I had felt like my co-workers was telling the boss things about me behind my back. Things like I'm doing something wrong or I did something bad trying to get me fired.
Well... They got their wish... The boss had let me go. And I was the youngest person in the company. I still feel like those co-workers are still talking behind my back after I'm gone from the company.
@TheresaFeng Ah, I'm sorry... I'm the youngest as well tbh and I have nothing in common with the people here... their all in their 40's or older and I'm in my 20's... so... you'd think people that age wouldn't gossip so much but... yeah, no.
@whyohwhy95137 I know. I hate it. I hate people talking behind my back. But I love the job so much. *sighs*
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I swear my boyfriend hates me nothing i do is good enough for him and i do EVERYTHING FOR HIS LAZY ASS today he even went as far as to hurting me again.. i swear im starting to resent him!!
Okay rant done !
@whyohwhy95137 Im always paranoid that everyone hates me to, or at least dont like me. Im hyperaware of everything I do because Im a people-pleaser. Im often the odd one out at work despite best efforts. (But I hate gossip!)
I was the divorced kid, too. It felt like I was marked from my parents divorce when I was 4 and it never went away. It was like they expected me to fail or get into trouble because I was raised by a single parent. My stepmother didnt like me and made it very well known that I was the other to her five kids. My dad never stood up for me and thats hurt me my whole life. I understand it hurts when others decide to not like you or hate you for no reason. Or exclude you just because you're not exactly like them.
I hope we all find the love and support we need. 
