Facing failure...
I was having a very important exam today. I gave the same exam last year and failed, I could have gotten into any university randomly but I had a specific dream uni so I didn't take admission and took a drop year. At the same time while preparing for this exam I was suffering from anxiety and depression. I went to see a psychologist and was taking therapy sessions but my parents didn't knew anything about my situation as they'd never understand the term mental health. So we told them that I need guidance for exam and I have exam fear. But today my exam went very bad I may score less than my previous exam. I was sad but mean words from my dad broke me more.
He kept on scolding me and said 'Why did you take drop in the first place? You never focused on studies did you? Why did you waste time with psychologist it's useless...? Why were you faking to work hard? You know what you should stop studying now.. People like you who can't handle pressure and stress are not meant for education. You ruined my handwork etc. '
It broke me I know he's not wrong but agh I'm lost honestly I cried and cried and still want to cry I have no idea what else to do where to go. But the only thing that hurt me is my anxiety is not taken seriously. I have panic attacks I'm taking medication for that. My parents know that I'm taking medicines but they never asked why so I never mentioned.