I feel invalid
Idk what to say. im so tired ive been looking for answers for half a year now and i found nothing, my friend found clarity in her adhd when she isnt diagnosed yet and doesn’t seem to have many issues, my other diagnosed asd and adhd friends think i have both, But i think im just a high sensation seeker who cant function in life without constant chaos and nobody knows if i’m this or adhd. i got an adhd diagnosis but i dont believe it, im so jealous that people aren’t so hard on themselves, i dont feel valid bc my issues aren’t severe enough and im prolly denying myself or holding myself to high standards even tho i have at least 8 symptoms in the dsm. im a fraud.😞
I dont need validation bc i know for a fact that i focus too well and i can supress my hyperactivity, Doc idk what ur taking about.
@excitableSun85
This sounds tough. I can understand embracing chaos as a lifestyle. I did that. It's stressful right? My friend said I was like pokemon, when I told him all my disorders...gotta catch em all! I can definitely relate, EVERYTHING IS SO HARD TO NAVIGATE! And my family makes me feel like a failure. They think things are my fault that go wrong and it is but my disorder are a big part of those problems. Even though your problems seem small to others, you know the truth. Don't let other people define you and live by your own standards outside of the conventions of society. It's hard to explain but you don't have to! I don't know if that helps or just sounds insane but I believe in you! You've got this!
I never followed society’s standards anyway but if i dont have a disorder or term as a label then my labels will forever be stupid, lazy, and useless. disorders are based on science, my therapist said i dont need one, they’re just for billing the insurance. But really, I spent my whole life believing that normal ppl are like me, But No. My NT friend said she doesnt have trouble focusing on anything :( how do we know if we have issues if we arent told what ‘normal’ is </3.
Judge yourself only on your own scale. There is no "normal" only a "normal" for a specific society - different societies have thier own versions.
I've had a bunch of labels over the years, found out most of them were wrong and eventually ended up figuring out most of the right ones myself and had it medically confirmed at least to the degree that I personally am satisfied. I'm still untangling some of it and trying to heal but things are much better.
Accessing treatment and accomidations and that needing labels is a seperate topic. One that is currently causing me issues as well.
Look for labels because they help you to understand, do better, heal, access resources, grow. If all they do is inflict pain reject them.
@excitableSun85 You know in your heart that the truth inlays. And I feel as though in my heart you don't have an ill desire, you have humbled, please listen to these texts as you read on, Do not feel sympathy, and sadness pithiness about yourself. It is ok to realize your pillars of salt and sand, Over there and here and all around us are an abundance of much more OF GREATER importance, other than having a whole lot of money... It lays within you the true answer of " and if you had millions today/tonight STOP and truly ask yourself what would you do tomorrow... now, certainly no person can honestly answer this because reality says it's just not true, (at the moment) with this feeling of self-assurance of certain failure, It is sure of what's to come and expect. You're distracting your universe from printing what you truly desire. and I think I know what it is... you don't want to be alone anymore... and you frown upon it... Let's START FROM THE BEGINNING you need to be redirected back to yourself from that from which you came. In your mind, and ultimately in your heart as the very idea that keeps us all thriving ahead and some of us making it look so simple, once you live long enough to meet many others in life, you will appreciate the silence one day, as I do today... Thanks, Bare with my strange writing ways but your waaaaaay more powerful than you know, yet. Take Care
