Today is a new day
Sooo everyone, wish me (and my hubs) good luck. We both struggle with addiction with all the things lol. Today is day 1. Again. It’s been almost a year since a day 1. I really need it. My marriage (to my soul mate, I swear) is hanging by a thread. It's one of the last important things I have left and I won’t let addiction snip that thread. Send positive vibes!
@BeautifulCurse congratulations. Remember to give yourself some grace because if you get caught up on not being perfect you will set a bar that's unreachable. Sometimes the trick is to go smaller with the goal they say one day at a time but at times it takes one hour at a time, one minute at a time. That's what worked for me anyways. I was addicted to opiates for 5 years and that's what it took because I have a habit at looking at the finish line even if I'm at the starting line and the finish line would look overwhelming and unreachable so smaller increments let me have little victories which motivated me to keep going to the finish line it's been a little over 5 years clean now. You got this
Very good, all of it. I’m distracting myself with online shopping 😆
@BeautifulCurse hey whatever it takes. You know why you like shopping because it gives you the same dopamine hit that you get from whatever you're addiction is. It's just the reward center in your brain associating that with a positive. Be careful though could easily become another addiction
I know I know. Whatever my addiction is ha. Like I said, all things. I don’t even play the lottery because I know better. Since I generally hate shopping though, this will be fine. I’m just spending all day putting stuff in my cart and then back out. 😬😆🙄🤔
@BeautifulCurse 🤣 its funny you say that with the cart comment I do that as well
Literally. I’ve been working on this same cart since Saturday. I really hate wasting money and I really hate being disappointed—and shopping is those two together, in my experience.
@BeautifulCurse I get that. For me idk why but I just feel guilty buying myself anything
Same. Hence the full shopping cart.
@BeautifulCurse what's your tattoo say
It says “beautiful curse,” like the mind of a person with BP disorder. The green heart with smile/frown face symbolizes both BP and mental health awareness.