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@turquoiseSail6771 Hello and welcome! It's nice to meet you :)

It's wonderful to hear that you've found and joined support groups that have been helpful. There's a Trauma community here
https://www.7cups.com/home/trauma/ The people are very nice and supportive. Going through the healing from abuse can be very lonely and isolating because so many of us have been told to be silent for so long. We often feel misunderstood or lack the words to explain what we've gone through, and it affects every aspect of our lives and makes it very hard to trust other people. I hope that 7Cups will be another source of support for you. I hope to see you around!

Dear N, when I read your post it was like reading my own. So very similar, I'm over 55 have CPTSD anxiety and MDD . I had a severe abusive childhood, I was assaulted as an adult and bullied by co worker. I have been in therapy, meds, art therapy journaling, etc trying to work through the immense pain I have from all of this. I have 2 grown kids and my spouse is here but doesn't completely understand what I'm dealing with . I had to give up my job , I couldn't handle the pressure there anymore. I've felt completely alone and isolated alot. I had a wall up around me for decades because I don't trust or let anyone in, I've been crushed way too many times. I feel your pain, im so sorry your dealing with all of this. Therapy in the last 3 years has helped me, I would not be here without it. I am better but I'm still on that rollercoaster of emotions and pain , it comes and goes. I just wanted to reach out and let you know you're not alone in your suffering and that 7cups has been an amazing support system for me because therapy one hour a week is just not enough. Props to you for surviving and reaching out for support. Sounds like your turning a corner in your healing. Best, ABB

I can relate to your pain. I am sending you big hugs through this phone. I to was abused so badly by my mother that I never cried until recently because it was a sign of weakness and she would really get mean. I joined the Air Force and served 4 years in pre womans lib days 46 years ago. Then I lost both of my children one to diabetes and one decided he didn’t need parents anymore. I always kept things to myself and it finally caught up with me. I was just diagnosed with severe PTSD anxiety/panic disorder and Health anxiety. I understand how you feel. Its like you will never have a normal life again. Take good care and take care of yourself.

@iHeartAvocados

Thanks for sharing your post with us. You have definitely been trough a whole lot. It is very difficult dealing with childhood abuse. I know, as I have also had years of that and also have complex ptsd and DID from it, and further young adulthood abuse. You are definitely not alone here at all. I understand how it all can also bring on additional medical issues with us in life. It breaks my heart to know how much you have suffered. sweet hugs sent to you. You were very brave and have come a long way to even open up and say what you did in your post. It is a life long process. It is also very hard being alone with so much. I am glad that your one son speaks to you and I bet it is so nice when he does. Thank him for me.