Ramblings 3
Nothing new, same issues . I miss the people here. I have been really struggling the last few months. I have been really trying and it seems like I am going back instead of forward.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami what's going on? You can tell me ❤ I love you ❤
@Iamwhoiamwhoami I know love/friendship is hard for you ❤ I never thought you'd ever tell me you love me back😁❤ people are scary, change is scary the unknown is scary, even waiting is scary. But guess what? Your stuck with all your friends here😁 we will always be by your side, I know not physically but spiritually ❤ I love you friend ❤ unfortunately your meds can help a bit, but your in so much pain, only the surgery can help stop that. But keep taking the meds, any little thing to help ❤
@Iamwhoiamwhoami and me, I'm doing ok😁 ❤ I am scared and feeling a bit lonley. My brain is working overtime I'm scared, happy, sad, nervous and so many things at once 🙁 I'm not ready to give up the right yet, so I am hoping this surgery works, and I can be me again ❤ and I'm looking forward to Sunday 😁I'm gonna be 24 years old 😁 I'm not sure if any of the other residents will be back by sunday. But that's ok, I got myself some fun things ❤ and they are all wrapped up ready
@Tinywhisper11
I am here for you, I don't have the magic words to make all the bad things disappear, but I am here, and I will listen to whatever you wanna say. Whether it's what or why you're scared, what are you happy about, what are you sad about, what's making you so nervous and everything else that's bouncing around in your head right now.❤️❤️
I sure hope you don't give up the fight, you're my rock. I rely on you for my strength. Your strength and determination interwoven with your love has helped to make a big change in me❤️❤️❤️
24 years old, congratulations. Even though I'm not one to celebrate anything, I would so like to get you something for your birthday, I know that's not possible but it would be nice if I could do that for you.❤️❤️
Hopefully you have somebody there to enjoy it with you❤️
@Iamwhoiamwhoami my carer will be here, and some staff😁 don't worry I've never given up before and don't tend to ever😁 I'm scared about loos ing my upper left body permanently, I'm nervous cause I want to get better, and I hate hospitals. I especially hate the the amputation ward... In fact I'll never step foot in their again😂😂😂😂😂😂😂 I'm happy because, well I like to be happy and sad. Because I was born healthy people made me disabled, and I can't help to keep thinking about that with all this going on 🙁 but I'll be ok ❤
@Tinywhisper11
And that right there is proof positive that you are a beautiful angel. The words you write can only come from a beautiful angel❤️
@Iamwhoiamwhoami awww thanks sweetie ❤ there are many earth angels I've come across ❤ and you are one of them, so now we are both angels ❤
@Tinywhisper11
Apologize, the delay in responding to your messages is just the delay in my brain getting things to my mouth to speak them to the phone here. Complete like a focus makes life all the more difficult with the physical weakness added in.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami hey! Don't worry about late replys, I understand ❤ hugs you tightly ❤
@Iamwhoiamwhoami so I thought of a gift you could give me for my birthday😁😁
@Iamwhoiamwhoami goood morning sweetie ❤❤ *pinch, punch, first of the month*😁 yaaaay! I got you first😁😁I'm having coffee then gonna shower. Don't worry I'll have one for you too ❤ ok so Halloween is over, so that means it's officially time to listen to Xmas music🎅🎅 yaaaaay! I've been listening to Xmas music all month but we won't tell anybody that😁
@Iamwhoiamwhoami did you miss any meds today??? Gives you a giant hug ❤ I love you ❤
@Iamwhoiamwhoami I'll be back to check in on you soon ❤
I tried to force myself to stay awake too my 10 o'clock meds last night which is well was only six hours ago. And I think I must've fell asleep just before at 10 o'clock dose, and I slept through my midnight dose and woke up just a little bit ago. So providing I didn't have a brain episode or two or three or four, or I woke up for a little bit and fell asleep again, then I think that might be the longest I've slept in one shot for a while. But with how out of it I have been, I could've woke up around the time of the meds and was just zoned out again. Obviously the biggest downfall is waking up and excessive pain Plus having to go to the bathroom so, not a good combination. I know when I woke up, I did come here. And I was gonna try and do some of my rambling but the pain was way too high so there was no way I was going to grasp to anything. I think I did do a response to one of the word games that I've participated in, but other than that I didn't do anything to came back here bit later when the pain mellowed a little bit. Not much, but a little bit.
I think today's gonna be a bad day for pain. I have a few things that I need to attempt to get done. Under normal circumstances they wouldn't take very long. But I think they are going to be tasks that Will probably take quite a few hours to complete. There again, if this pain doesn't mellow, I won't be accomplishing much of anything.