Ramblings 3
Nothing new, same issues . I miss the people here. I have been really struggling the last few months. I have been really trying and it seems like I am going back instead of forward.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami 😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥😥
Good luck with your doctors appointment ❤ I'm sorry I already knew about the surgery being cancelled. Remembering new information goes right over my head sometimes, sorry. It's gonna be ok, just tell the doctor everything your feeling ❤ if you want to of course ❤ hugs you tightly ❤I love you ❤
@Iamwhoiamwhoami YYY I ordered a coin for Xmas or my birthday, haven't decided which one yet. On the one side it says yes and it says no on the other. It's supposed to answer the question you ask 😁 may be after my birthday or Xmas we can play it together ❤ I just took my last meds, my body is just one big ball of pain right now🙁 I know you're is too😥 I just wanted to check in on you, and say goodnight🙂 so, goodnight angel, I hope today is what others class as a good day ❤ hugs you tightly ❤ I love you ❤
❤️. @Tinywhisper11. Goodnight to you as well my beautiful ❤️Hugging you snuggly too❤️I love you too ❤️
@Tinywhisper11
I thought it was just me, because I am in a similar situation with the pain . I can’t flop to any position that alleviates any of mine. 🙄
@Iamwhoiamwhoami I know🙁 being in constant pain is horrible😥 hugs you tightly ❤
Just took second pain pill for the ride to the doctor. In the same timeframe I noticed a couple of fingertips on my right hand are numb. Squeezing them and it seems to be letting up, feeling getting back to normal. I don’t have good feeling in them anymore but the tingling and numbness that does back just a bit is not normal for me. Ok, now back to normal.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami did you just say your normal!?!?😂😂😂😂😂😂😂
Is the looking feeling in your hands something to do with your arthritis??
@Tinywhisper11
The tingling in the fingers was a new thing. ❤️
@Iamwhoiamwhoami ohhh! That's strange. Hey! Maybe it tingles when your about to get good news🙂❤
I finally got an appointment for the next consultation with a surgeon. October 24th, and it is in a town a lot closer.
If I had Tinys optimism and positive thinking I would be rolling around in joy. But I don’t I have no hopes left in line. Whatever happens I will keep my mouth shut and whatever will be, will be.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami You felt something was wrong and you took a stand for yourself and with the previous experience you had it was understandable to be cautious. Yes this increased the wait for the surgery but it's also important that all the people involved, the procedures being done feel right to you cause you and your well-being matters the most in this whole thing. Been strong for so long, you deserve the best of all that you need.
@BlueDarkAurora
Thank you, I know that you are right. But I think I said earlier the only strength I have left is the strength from you and my other friends here. I am so completely drained, I think even my doctor noticed it today. I will stop this rambling, sorry.
I am so thankful for your kindness and support, it may not seem like it but it means a lot to me. ❤️
I just looked at the time it took me to write that above response…7 minutes. Speed writer I am not.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami 😂😂😂😂😂😂
@Iamwhoiamwhoami we all feel the kindness and gratitude you feel.. no words needed ^-^ <3 We will all be here <3
I feel like I am in a whirlwind.everything spinning out of control. I have lost my footing and pulled into the storm.
I am so tired yet I can’t sleep. I have lost all focus. I want to ramble but I can’t grasp anything.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami don't worry I'm rolling around in joy for you🙂❤ that's awsome news, just a couple of weeks, a town closer that's Claus🎅 for celebration😂😂 I'm sorry I'm already so excited about xmas 😁❤ and don't worry I'm hugging you too tightly so you can't get swept up by the storm, cause I'm your anchor ❤ and all the others here are holding you down too ❤ we'll done for going to the doctor, I know it all must be so frustrating and hard for you to do all theese things (doctors, hospital) but things are starting to go in the right direction, just gotta hold in there a little bit longer ok? ❤ I'm so proud of you, let's just hope your surgery doesn't fall in halloween😂😂😂 of all the bad luck😂😂
@Iamwhoiamwhoami YYY after this surgery I'm wrapping you up in bubble wrap, so you'll never hurt yourself or feel pain ❤❤😁 hugs you tightly ❤❤ I love you ❤❤
@Tinywhisper11
That reminds me did you ever say whether you have laid a bunch of bubble wrap on the floor and then run over it back and forth using the chair?
❤️❤️I love you too ❤️❤️
@Iamwhoiamwhoami I have not, but that sounds fun😂😂😂😂😂😂
@Tinywhisper11
I am not getting any notifications on my phone, I am having trouble keeping my eyes open. So hopefully I don’t but if I do miss your messages I apologize in advance. ❤️❤️hugs, I love you ❤️❤️
@Tinywhisper11
I was wondering if you’re any closer to the light with your thoughts? How are you feeling and doing? ❤️Hugging you snuggly with love❤️
I still am spinning in amongst the whirlwind of uncontrolled chaos of my life. Tiny is trying to ground me, but I seem to be just out of her reach.
I had ordered a few different pillows to try because my current one is not working very well right now. I opened and unpackaged one of them and I like it for the fact it is a stiff one and it does keep my head a lot cooler. Unfortunately, I think it is too stiff for my current condition. I have an inexpensive adjustable bed and I am having to adjust it quite frequently to try and minimize the pain.
I will unpackaged another one in the morning and try that one. I may have to order another option or two. My one I have been using is ok for a bit but I have to flip it way too often and it’s difficult and painful to do . I am a bit sweaty at times when I sleep and with that and the frequent flipping I am trying to find something that helps, cooling pillows.. but also a stiffness that works for multiple positions without completely collapsing from my fat head.
@Iamwhoiamwhoami pillows are not cheap, and yep it's awkward to find just the right ones. Hopefully you'll find a good one soon ❤❤ we'll beat this wirlwind, I won't let go ❤ it's understandable to be caught up in this storm right now 🙁 when you can gather a thought or two try and write it down here ❤
me I'm ok ❤ I'm just frustrated with myself lately and it's getting me down. I can't wheel myself around (unless I want to go around in circles, which is fun but that's not the point) I can't do any art (I've tried but it's impossible with one hand and only 2 fingers and a thumb) it's hard to feed myself, and my uppy downy bed remote control thingy, is in the left side so I can't reach😔 it sucks. But I will be better soon ❤ and your gonna have surgery soon, so hopefully we will both be a lot better physically ready for the new year ❤😁❤