hi Roark112, i feel that you did the right thing reaching out here, and you know what, when we are heartbroken, we all feel 'kinda bad at this', don't we?
So, i just wanted to say, one human to another, I saw your message today, and I relate to that feeling of being overwhelmed, it is awful and somehow inevitable when something or someone breaks our heart, there seems to be no bottom to it, no end, and the bigger your heart is, the more awful it feels. I hope that your heart heals gradually, and if you need to talk, and are looking for a listener, let me know. Charlie.