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A human being is but a thinking reed - Hana from Ao Ashi (Manga)
Number of ratings172 Number of reviews136 Listens toOver 18 LanguagesEnglish, Hindi Listener sinceAug 15, 2020 Last activein last week GenderMale PathStep 330 People helped963 Chats5,265 Listener group chats2 Forum posts9 Forum upvotes33
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I love deep philosophical talks about love, life and everything in between. Let's chat!

~~Self-composed poems for the soul~~  (PS: Hope they empower you through your journey 😇)


Shadow of a Shadow


Behind everyone lie great many secrets

From suffocating truths to illicit thoughts
Portrayal of the shadow's heart
But why make matters bleak?

An angel layered beside us at odd times
Forever companion hidden in the dark
Not lost but assimilated with
The world beckoning at our steps

A handy watch varying in size
Sun's projections sticking to our feet
Giving us a moment to reflect
Faceless we are in this grand scheme

Liberating feelings that we shun
Acceptance and guidance it ever asks
See to it as it sees looking up to you
For your shadow's shadow is you


A Car with no Propane


Journey to discover
My one true gas station
That would fill me up
With her best grade of love

Pumping in the fuel, she does
And out it goes to waste
Needless losses and vain attempts
Revving my engines again and again

"You are beyond repair, sir
Fifteen Hundred dollars is the bill
Please come back for our services
We aim to please and assist"

But what good is an automobile
If it cannot carry its own burdens
Away from all the destinations
Sinking in a rust of troubles

A hollowed frame
No room to contain
Wild leaves and algae
Greet me with a deep embrace

Parts chopped, spanners drop
To fit in with others
Drilled holes show no signs to stop
An everlasting misery at this auto shop

I could give it a try
Be part of their journeys
Fulfilling my purpose
Hanging onto their glories

Far be it for me
Living this life from scratch
However, here I am
In this gas station one more time


Billboards


Erecting tall rods,
Flashing short forms,
Masking the space,
Shadows on long walks

Projecting projects,
Coercing subjects,
Curtaining the mess,
High and Mighty yells,

"Behold you cheap,
You flinging garbage,
Take note of me and
This endless vastness"

Posters hanging,
Speakers blaring,
All mean the same,
To deaf washing pave

Maddened statues,
Agonized by truths,
Tethered to grovel,
Designed for rooks

Fickle flickers in fear,
Crowing cries in tears,
Shrouded by bush,
The Tiny wonders,

"Who was I, if not,
the skies behind,
Boundless in shape,
Bountiful in sights"

Cosmos writhe,
Asteroids awry,
All mean the same,
To rocks turning pave








Recent forum posts
BIllboards
Poetry / by John20013
Last post
October 17th, 2023
...See more Billboards ------------------------- Erecting tall rods, Flashing short forms, Masking the space, Shadows on long walks Projecting projects, Coercing subjects, Curtaining the mess, High and Mighty yells, "Behold you cheap, You flinging garbage, Take note of me and This endless vastness" Posters hanging, Speakers blaring, All mean the same, To deaf washing pave Maddened statues, Agonized by truths, Tethered to grovel, Designed for rooks Fickle flickers in fear, Crowing cries in tears, Shrouded by bush, The Tiny wonders, "Who was I, if not, the skies behind, Boundless in shape, Bountiful in sights" Cosmos writhe, Asteroids awry, All mean the same, To rocks turning pave
A Car with no Propane
Poetry / by John20013
Last post
October 21st, 2023
...See more A Car with no Propane ------------------------- Journey to discover My one true gas station That would fill me up With her best grade of love Pumping in the fuel, she does And out it goes to waste Needless losses and vain attempts Revving my engines again and again "You are beyond repair, sir Fifteen Hundred dollars is the bill Please come back for our services We aim to please and assist" But what good is an automobile If it cannot carry its own burdens Away from all the destinations Sinking in a rust of troubles A hollowed frame No room to contain Wild leaves and algae Greet me with a deep embrace Parts chopped, spanners drop To fit in with others Drilled holes show no signs to stop An everlasting misery at this auto shop I could give it a try Be part of their journeys Fulfilling my purpose Hanging onto their glories Far be it for me Living this life from scratch However, here I am In this gas station one more time
Shadow of a Shadow
Poetry / by John20013
Last post
October 5th, 2023
...See more Shadow of a Shadow ------------------------- Behind everyone lie great many secrets From suffocating truths to illicit thoughts Portrayal of the shadow's heart But why make matters bleak? An angel layered beside us at odd times Forever companion hidden in the dark Not lost but assimilated with The world beckoning at our steps A handy watch varying in size Sun's projections sticking to our feet Giving us a moment to reflect Faceless we are in this grand scheme Liberating feelings that we shun Acceptance and guidance it ever asks See to it as it sees looking up to you For your shadow's shadow is you ------------------------- Please let me know what you think :-)
I want to be loved
Depression Support / by John20013
Last post
October 19th, 2020
...See more Just. Please. I am growing impatient. Everyone around me seems to have someone whom they love more than me. I am never anyone's first choice. I feel like a doormat in everyone's life. I have no energy or ability to be able to stand on my own. All kind people I meet and talk with tell me that I have to learn to love myself but I genuinely can't. I can't, OK? I am like a monkey who is asked to speak fluent English. I will take millions of year to be biologically be able to speak some form of language. And I don't have that sort of patience. I am sorry. All this is hard. I am struggling to get better for myself? But I hate myself. So am I struggling to get better for someone else? But no one loves me. Even my family has a skewed way of expressing love in forms of material value. Saying "I love you" is something none of us know and are scared to think and feel about. So I am stuck. Stuck in this quicksand. I want someone to help me, someone who can teach me what is live by loving me back. I don't want to be here alone and struggle. Because the more I struggle, the more I fall into the quicksand.
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