More than nervous.... Responsible..... Evey outcom Is the product of my ability to inspire, lead, motivate. How valuable a tool am I? What outputs can be elicited from the slag?
You said: "What outputs can be elicited from the slag?" Perhaps I go it wrong when I used Google Translate... would you like to expand the meaning of that sentence?
Sounds like you hold yourself very accountable. Not only for what you do but what you can get others to produce. The term that resonated with me most was "tool". I go between striving to be the most effective tool and disgust for acting as agent for corporate goals. Looking at associates as whole complex people rather than resources resistant to productivity seems to make it harder for me to push for economic metrics.