Loneliness and conversations with the wrong people
When you don't have much going for you in life, and your lonely all the time, you get kinda desperate. That is what happens to me and often times I find myself talking to whoever will talk back to me, and often times those are not good conversations.
As I write this, I'm also thinking about those busy people that have too many people to talk to. They don't have time to answer all of their emails. It is hard for me to wrap my brain around it. Often times I feel like a loser. Because society doesn't pay attention to me because I'm not dong enough. I don't have a bunch of talents. And I'm not that interested in the things I'm interested in. When you got almost no people in your life, then what is the point of having interests that you can't share with anyone.
@tryingtosurvive2024
You feel at a loss and feel lonely and desperate unlike other people who you consider to be more occupied and have things going well. Your have a sense of worthlessness because you are not doing enough. You blame yourself for what you see as people withdrawal from you for failing to reach an agreeable standard of standard.
🥰@tryingtosurvive2024
Hey! It’s actually the other way around. When you have things to do you will get people who like similar things as you. Don’t lose hope. Find something that you like and develop interest in it voluntarily. You will eventually find someone to share it with.
xoxo
@tryingtosurvive2024 I feel like I need to clarify something. I have interests in many different things. But I have nobody to share those interests with! I can't say that enough. Look I've been alive for 45 years, and I have been online 22 of those years. I don't find people that will share my interests with me. Not in a way that I could hang out with them and do those interests.