Twisted irony
Tw pedo, sexual abuse
I’ve been used sexually for a long time by different people. My parents sexualize me especially my dad who is creepy. From as young as I can remember people have touched me. Although ik this is my brains way of surviving I like it now. Being seen and used as an object. It’s become a kink. Like genuinely rape kink. I hate it. Even pedofilia and being used by someone older than me part of me likes. It’s horrible I don’t want this. I swear I don’t like it or condone it but ever since I was in elementary school the idea made me feel things. I used to search for these kinds of people, they made me feel wanted, attractive and loved. I feel horrible about it, guilty. Does anyone have any experience with this or know how to deal with it? I just hope I’m not alone