My mom was trapped and I enjoyed watching it
At the age of 5 I watched my mom being trapped and chased around her car by a babysitter's husband because she was trying to kidnap my brother and I from the babysitter's house during her divorce to my dad. I enjoyed waving to the babysitter's husband as he stood against his front door blocking it on my mom. I feel like the babysitter's husband is my hero and role model
Hope that my mom never shows up unannounced to my house
@creativeStrings1531 Hi. It sounds like you have some mixed feelings and may be trying to reach out to talk more about this. I have felt that apprehension hoping that an abusive family member wouldn’t come to my house too. As well as wanting to be prepared for if it ever did happen. You’re not alone. I’m sorry you went through that. I’m glad that nothing more happened that day. But I also know how these memories stay with us. I’m around here on the forums every so often if you want to talk about it more.
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Yes I feel I have the fight part of PTSD
@creativeStrings1531 I understand. I get the fight reflex too sometimes. I think it wants us to acknowledge our anger, that the person did something that was not ok. You are allowed to be angry. It is ok to say that your mother was wrong for trying to kidnap you. It is ok to be glad that she was stopped.
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I feel sometimes if my mom were to show up unannounced that I would put her through everything that the babysitter's husband did to her and I have told this to my therapist
@creativeStrings1531 I think we imagine those scenarios because we want to take our power back. As children we were so helpless and had to rely on adults for survival (whether they could actually be relied on or not). Sometimes we had to find our own ways to survive. I know for myself, I always feel a strong need now to defend myself, fight back, and stand up for myself. I think it’s natural, and we’re learning how to do it. I think it’s really awesome that you talk to your therapist about it! Does it help you feel better?
@creativeStrings1531 It sounds like the babysitter was doing some good things defending and protecting you.
@creativeStrings1531 That sounds like a nice idea to reconnect with a childhood hero like that. I hope you hear back from him soon!
I am going to write another later to the babysitter's husband
I meant to say I am going to write another letter to the babysitter's husband
I really hope to reconnect with my hero and role model of the babysitter's husband soon I think I'm going to write him another letter hopefully he will respond this time
It was fun for me to watch my mom and the babysitter's husband skip around the outside of her car and to hear my mom say dinky dinky let me go as they skipped
Well my therapist got rid of me she is supposed to send me information about peer support and crisis information