CPTSD
I was diagnosed with CPTSD when I was 12 and it's still getting to me at times
@tealChestnut6477
Being diagnosed at such a young age sounds very heavy.
I imagine it must have been/still is difficult.
I hope you were provided with the appropriate resources<3
We are here for you<3💛💫
@tealChestnut6477
Beloved, that's a pretty heavy diagnosis. Your experience of it still getting to you makes sense.
Can you share what specifically is going on for you?
@journeyingforward anything ranging from triggers to sometimes having dreams about it
@tealChestnut6477
I'm sorry. It can take alot of time and work to heal the wounds into scars. Please be kind to yourself as you work through it and surround yourself with a few good supporters to walk with you. 💛
@journeyingforward I've pretty much been by myself
@tealChestnut6477
Sometimes it's easier to stick by ourselves becsuse its so dfficult to open up and trust. But, we have to try and find support - even if its just one other person for now.
There is a belief that we need positive healthy relationships to heal from the negative harmful ones. My experience on my own healing has taught me that this is true.
I am a Listener. Please feel free to message me if you want to connect.
Be well, beloved. 💛
@tealChestnut6477 I'm so sorry for what you went through. The past never really seems to stay in the past. If you have unresolved childhood trauma it can still cause you issues. Nightmares - fears - depression and anxiety and a whole mess of other things tbh. Have you talked with a therapist? One that's trauma informed is the best way to go. Sometimes we just need to talk through it - to find people who understand and are willing to listen. Journaling can help - writing down the things you went through. Some times there might be some inner work that needs to be done. This is a good place to start - because it can be hard to share some times but this is a safe space. You don't have to go through it alone ❤️
@mytwistedsoul I've seen therapists and psychiatrists and it still seems to affect me
@tealChestnut6477 I think alot of times there are going to be certain parts of trauma that can stick with us for years afterwards. I don't think that our triggers ever fully go away - we just learn how to cope with them better. Therapy helps alot but it's also good to have a support system to turn to. Are there people that support you with what you're dealing with? I mean - you have us here on cups we can offer support and understanding and an ear or two if you need them
Sometimes we need to revisit things - areas of trauma we went through. Which sucks tbh - because alot of times we just want to be done with the whole thing so we can move forward. I really wish it was that easy. Sometimes we might think we're ok but then something happens - it can be something minor but it reopens everything back up again. There's a saying - healing isn't linear and unfortunately it isn't. We go forward a few steps - we might back track or even go in circles now and again and then take a few more steps forward again
I saw in another reply you mentioned needing numbers for crisis resources - I'm sorry if I misunderstood but I thought I'd leave a link here for that - in case https://www.7cups.com/crisis/
@mytwistedsoul I haven't really found anyone other than being here. I've just felt shattered, lost, lonely, and overwhelmed and I'm still not sure how to deal with triggers or my emotions towards things.
@tealChestnut6477 It's similar on my end too. I have no contact with family and no friends outside of Cups. But this place is a really great first step and alot of people here do understand what you're going through
Triggers and emotions are definitely a struggle. It can be hard to pinpoint what triggers things because triggers can be anything - a scent - a sound - even emotions. Do you have ways to ground yourself? Grounding can help with different things like being triggered - flashbacks - nightmares and even overwhelming emotions. It can take time to find something that works and I have a few different methods I use because one method may not work from one moment to the next. They take practice too so if it doesn't work the first time - its ok - it doesn't mean you're doing anything wrong. There are other things like cbt and dbt that can help but it might be easier to these with a therapist. Tbh - even with a therapist I struggle with doing these. There is some DBT activities Here if you'd be interested in checking them out. I'm sure there's some CBT stuff here somewhere but I haven't come across them yet
@tealChestnut6477 This is awesome! I'm so glad to hear you liked it! I really hope it helps and leads you closer to healing ❤️
And Thank you so much for letting us know!
@tealChestnut6477
Sorry to hear this, never seen someone that is diagnosed at such a young age, it must be difficult.
It is a nice start to share it on here(this website), sharing things you don't like or how you feel really release the stress, and maybe it will help, stay positive my friend!!!
Best
I totally understand feeling tired of having flashbacks. It's almost like you can't tell the difference between a real gut feeling and a trauma response. It's easier said than done, but try doing things that make you happier. I personally know how hard it is to keep going after experiencing it. Have you tried texting the crisis line just so you have someone to talk to during a panic attack?
@Peppery94 I need their number
@tealChestnut6477
My heart goes out to you and you have my love. I am in a similar situation, but this is not about me. I just wish to say, that i can understand as best as i can. I hope you get the support that you need and all the care in the world to try and heal.
When the clouds gather, sit still and feel my hand reaching out and holding yours. You are never alone and love is so much stronger than pain or hate. Know that you are very much loved xxx
@sooty41 thank you and I hope you feel better soon too