My Diary

I think something I wanna do on threads like this is change my color (text) for each alter. That way people don't get confused if I type more than one answer to something or post more than one time.

Me (host)

Lillian

Aki

Talilia

Aiko (we decided to do black highlighting so the text is visible)

And there are a lot more, that is just everyone who has decided so far.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=kWRd_-IsDHs

Love this song

So, I have been on a bit of a singing craze recently. I will post some songs on here. I may post one I wrote if I can produce one I actually like. :)

Here are some songs (I can't scream so please don't expect any) and I am sick so my voice sounds worse than usual. :(

https://voca.ro/b8LD7Ud35hR

(Chasing the first time - Three Days Grace)

https://voca.ro/jsm0HxYh1WW

(Never too late - Three Days Grace)

I may post more if yall like these.

So someone asked me to make a list of all my fears, here's what we have so far (text will stay black for this post):

Haphephobia an anxiety disorder characterized by a fear of being touched. Other names for haphephobia include chiraptophobia, aphenphosmphobia, and thixophobia.

Acrophobia: extreme or irrational fear or phobia of heights, especially when one is not particularly high up.

Enochlophobia: an irrational fear of large crowds and gatherings of people.

Anthrophobia : Fear of excessive social interactions

Scopophobia: fear of being watched or stared at

Agoraphobia which is the fear of and desire to avoid situations wherein one believes she/he may be subjected to incapacitation, humiliation etc

Coulrophobia: fear of clowns

Philophobia: The fear of love (or falling in love) (or being loved)

Sociophobia: Fear of social gatherings, fear of socializing, fear of embarrassment in social situations that is extremely intrusive and can have markedly debilitating effects on personal and professional relationships. Phobias are persistent, excessive, irrational fears of certain objects or situations

Obesophobia - Fear of gaining weight

Nosocomephobia - Fear of hospitals

Glossophobia - Fear of speaking in public

Catagelophobia - Fear of being ridiculed

Anginophobia - Fear of angina or choking

Atychiphobia: Fear of failure

Autophobia: Fear of being alone

Sociophobia: Fear of social evaluation

Somniphobia: fear of sleep

The fear of intimacy phobia is known by several other names such as Aphenphosmphobia (which is the fear of being touched) as well as Philophobia (which is the fear of love).

Aphenphosmphobia – The fear of intimacy

Anthropophobia – The fear of people. Being afraid of people in all situations

Pistanthrophobia is the fear of trusting people

People who are sensitive to certain sounds sometimes cope by blocking them out. Misophonia, meaning "hatred of sound", was proposed in 2000 as a condition in which negative emotions, thoughts, and physical reactions are triggered by specific sounds.

Syngenesophobia- Fear of relatives

Hey, it's me Aiko!! For once, I am gonna do a whole post. Yay!!

Some stuff about me:

Fave color: green

I don't like to take people's crap and I don't like it when K takes it either. (By the way, in order to not show her actual name, but to be able to refer to her, I will call our host K)

There is two things about me!! I wanna try to see if I can get K to do one too. What do yall think?

So, we tried to post our Red Ribbon week story and got this message

"Something in your forum post sounded like you might be in crisis. If you are thinking about harming yourself or someone else, please refer to these crisis resources."

I think my dog, Jaxson, is dying...I feel so helpless and useless. I know I can't do anything. We believe that it's breast cancer and, since he is a Great Dane (full blooded), we can't do anything to help him. The medicene would kill him, as his breeds' hearts are not made to withstand the meds. We had him for about 6 years. He is about 45, right now. I know that he is getting on up there in years, but I can't bear to let him go yet. He stuck with me through thick and thin. No matter what was wrong with him, he always loved everyone, he always wanted to play. He was a trooper. I am so scared, I don't want him to go. I know I can't stop him, but that doesn't make it any better. Recently, he refused to move much and has refused to eat for three days now. I don't want him to suffer, but I also want him to stay. I don't know what to do...

Jaxson is dead. (I am Aki and I will be taking over this post for K and Aiko) He died this morning. K has been crying all day and wore herself out. None of us can believe that he is gone. He was with us for 6 years.

I have this friend at school and I have been confiding in her, since she does the same with me. I want to talk to her about my bulimia (so that she knows why I always worry that she eats to little) and my DID. Sadly, I don't have any idea how.