I remember more (TW)
Abuse. At school. Older kid. When I was young. No memory of it for a long time. Coming back now. I remember, more or less. She tried to make me taste her. Too awful for words. I cant right now. But I know it probably happened. Dont really know how to cope with this one. Memory comes back and I immediately feel like I just dont wanna be here I want to die. Not Going to do that, because its not an option still so hard to cope with this. Shame guilt humiliation and pain all that stuff mixed together. It hurts inside so badly. Help Please if you can.
@pioneeringBanana1598
I know we're talking later, and I assume maybe about this, but I figured I'd reply anyway. Emerging memories can really shake you up, especially if you weren't looking for them. I find it's similar to the feeling I get when I realize like... something I hadn't thought of about an old memory. Like what it really means? I don't know if I'm explaining that properly. I guess it's like... seeing memories through my adult eyes can be very jarring because it's like you pass it through this filter or translator of all the knowledge you've acquired since then.
I think that the fact that these memories are coming out means your brain is healing. It will probably be overwhelming for a while, but over time your brain will run out of these repressed memories, and you'll also get better at handling them when they do come up. I know that right now that may not feel very useful, but I promise this will pass. Stay strong <3
