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Wakeboarder222
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PathStep 11 Compassion hearts277 Forum posts324 Forum upvotes320 Current upvotes320 Age GroupAdult Last activeMay, 2023 Member sinceOctober 24, 2018
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I said sorry
Trauma Support / by Wakeboarder222
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 October 14th, 2019
...See more Abuse when young. Long time ago. Cant remember much, just bits and pieces. Flashbacks, anxiety attacks, all that fun stuff. I remember that I said I was sorry. I really was. I didnt mean it, whatever it was that I did to make her so upset that time. I said I was sorry I told her I was but she wouldnt believe me. And then… Really remember what happened but I know that it happened, whatever it is. It Happened so fast and so slow at the same time. It was brutal I think. Who knows, I cant Remember well. Maybe wasnt even that big of a deal. Yeah Right. All I know is that it wasnt a good situation. I tried… I really tried, I tried my best but it didnt work… I couldnt stop it and once she got started… Not good. I thought saying sorry would help keep me safe. Sometimes it worked but I guess it didnt work that time. Scary. Sorry. Cant remember, just the feelings come back. Sorry. Scared.
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I remember more (TW)
Trauma Support / by Wakeboarder222
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 December 8th, 2018
...See more Abuse. At school. Older kid. When I was young. No memory of it for a long time. Coming back now. I remember, more or less. She tried to make me taste her. Too awful for words. I cant right now. But I know it probably happened. Dont really know how to cope with this one. Memory comes back and I immediately feel like I just dont wanna be here I want to die. Not Going to do that, because its not an option still so hard to cope with this. Shame guilt humiliation and pain all that stuff mixed together. It hurts inside so badly. Help Please if you can.
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Don
Trauma Support / by Wakeboarder222
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 November 14th, 2018
...See more It hurts. Its hard. I feel like I cant do this even though I know Im going to because theres really not any other choice in life. I dont want to remember anymore. And no wonder my brain was trying to protect me from what happened. I wish I didnt know. I wish I could just go back to forgetting. But I cant and I know I wont get better that way. And I really want to get better. But it so hard. I dont know what Im doing or how to do this. I feel alone and overwhelmed and who knows what else. I just wish… I wish it never happened and I wish I could get the stuff off my mind. Its really difficult. Any support/help would be greatly appreciated.
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