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BestIcanbe June 16th, 2018

Of all the words, theres lots of them

The worst word I could name

In all the English language

Without a doubt its shame

It ties you down, it suffocates

It clips your wings of flight

It sucks the air right out your lungs

And robs the room of light

And worst of all, it wont let go

It digs its claws in you

It seeps into your every thought

And everything you do

And even though I hear it said

Its not my shame to hold

It feels like so much part of me

Its mine until Im old

I wish that as a child Id not

Accepted it as me

I wish Id fought, I wish Id won

I wish I could be free

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BestIcanbe OP June 24th, 2018

No one ever asked how I felt
Like my thoughts never mattered
It left me empty, scared, confused
Self esteem just shattered

No one ever asked how I was
Did life treat me alright
How could they fail to see the truth
There lived a child in fright

No one ever asked what went on
My spirit lost for good
The light went out behind my eyes
Yet no one understood

Was I ever worth caring about
When much was robbed and gone
Daughter, sister, little girl
Or was I just no one?

BestIcanbe OP June 24th, 2018

You make me sick my inner child
I know it

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BestIcanbe OP June 24th, 2018

Let

BestIcanbe OP June 26th, 2018


I called him the runt of the litter
I called him a girl and a she
I bullied him just like his father
Thats why my brother raped me

You proved youre a man then my brother
I deserved what I got in your view
You walked away with your conscience so clean
Whilst Im filthy all the way through

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BestIcanbe OP June 26th, 2018

Why does a father have children
When he just wants to tear them apart
What does he think he can give them
As a sadist who

BestIcanbe OP June 28th, 2018

Carefree, younger me
Be anything I want to be

Bad dad, makes son feel sad
Takes all the self esteem he had

Silly me, calls brother ‘she
But notes it fills her dad with glee

I try to please, I laugh and tease
But theres no fun in jokes like these

Dad now calls the boy the runt
Sisters just a silly cunt
Its time for her to bear the brunt
The consequence of this affront

He does the deed, fulfils his need
Ignored the words she used to plead
Is he proud he made her bleed
Or that he plants his filthy seed

Silent, angry, shocked and raw
No one cared, no one saw

So now shes lost her silly game
She knows that she must take the blame
Punishment becomes the aim
And now begins her life of shame

Carefree, younger me
No longer free

BestIcanbe OP June 30th, 2018

Imagine what its like to be

Living with my liberty

With self respect and dignity

To not be an apology

Theres one thing I can guarantee

Id make the most of being free

Please someone grant me this one plea

Let me be new and not be me

BestIcanbe OP July 1st, 2018

What

BestIcanbe OP July 3rd, 2018

Ever thought what makes a dad
Let

BestIcanbe OP July 6th, 2018

You so hurt me
I want to hate you
Yet my feelings are confused
When I see you
Do you see me
The young girl who you abused?

Are you guilty?
Do you regret it?
Or was it something I deserved?
You know you

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