Tw: Trauma, drugs, self harm
I have 5 alters/people. Sam, Molly, Alex, Cat and me (Dan). All girls.
From ages 3-7; 12; 15-18 I have been people's "play thing". At age 3-7 it was my biological father. Age 12 my adoptive brother. And age 15-18 my ex best friend.
I was in foster system from ages 3-10. (We had visits with my biological parents until the age of 10.) Moving from family to family school to school every 6 months. No one taught me to read or anything for that matter until mom adopted me at age 10. My adoptive brother asked me to help him with a video game and I went to help him but instead he choked me then touched me. I was 12 and he was 17. When I was 15 I was abused for 3 straight years everyday day in and day out.
My biological parents were druggies and alcoholics. There was substances and alcohol everywhere.
During the foster care system school days Alex would front. Alex was/is a teenage that is (what I call a typical teenager ie: depressed self harm (we have stopped all her and my own self harm) type of person. Molly not entirely sure when but she is a little. Then there's Cat she is a black cat and she took everything trauma from when I was 15-18 years old. My brain said what do you do to a cat.... You pet it. What is the girl doing to me? I must be a cat..... So yeah.... Then there is Sam. Sam is my cyborg when I can't deal with anything. You mention harm and she fronts to keep everyone safe. Either me or others. She came about because I turned to self harm and yeah.....
Then me. I'm Dan and I'm the host of us. Like every legal doc and such is me.
Sorry for the very very very long post. I know it's a lot. We are 4 years clean from self harm and it's been a while like a long time since I've had extremely bad thoughts.
Thank you for reading 💖