HEY LOVELIES !!

I am Twinkle. A normal girl with a chaotic life. 

I am 16 years old and looking for acceptance.  I want to make friends and have fun like others . I have a whole mind of parallel worlds . I am a Author and a poet ( no not the real one)

I want to share my craziness and find my place here .

If you ever see me in public ( impossible scenario hehe):

•  Wave and Smile at me 
• I'll wave and smile at you too 

Then you  , your way and me my way 

If you wanna be my friend ( again impossible scenario hehe) :

• Wave and smile at me
• I'll wave and smile at you too
• Bump into me and leave a note introducing yourself 
• Next day , I'll bump into you and leave you a note 

And here we are friends 

If you want to make me feel better :

• Hug me
• Hold my hand
• And tell me you care about me and be here for me

I can't say if I'll be ok or not but I'll surely feel better

I have always felt like I am an Outcast because I had no one who were like me . You'd say you are unique,  but what's the use to be unique when you have no one to say that hey join us. It is because no one wants to be friends with a weirdo. 

I have some triggers , so for the listeners it is something they should know before messaging me ( though I know it would be me who'd go crying to them ) :

• I don't like talking about violence 
• I don't feel comfortable when people say " I like you" (because I don't like myself) or assume that my problems are tantrum like " You are not lonely,  you have friends ."
• I don't like when people manipulate or gaslight others 

 These all things make me question my self in a wrong manner ( like I'd feel it's my fault or have severe anxiety and panic attacks)

Some issues I have :

• Either I'll trust you easily or I'll not be able to trust you 
• I have social anxiety and get scared in big group or crowd
• I may exaggerate my problems  pls don't call me fake because of this
• I am always *over* sweet ( yes this is a issue)
• I am not good with keeping friends 
• I cry often and can be very clingy
• I get attached to people 
• I find it hard to let go 
• I struggle to maintain relationships 
• It is hard for me to like myself
• I don't easily believe I am okay , even if I am 
• I have a bad habit to only see negative 

Most of the time my life seems the best because thankfully my parents are not toxic but their gaslighting behavior makes me question stuff . 

In 2022 , I started to write poems because of that one person who inspired me to be a little confident . Fun fact - She and I never knew each other and where practically strangers . I was so inspired by her that I wrote a poem ( for the first time) for her. 

The same year , many things followed up , my old friends started to ignore me and my bestfriend left the country.  Those were some heartbreaking moments that led me to come here . 

Now I am better than before but still have some flashes of my past . Now that all of this has happened,  I hope now things get better . And I start to make new friends. And not be afraid to be myself. 

If you reach the end , it means that you got to know a severe part of me . Congratulations!! 

If you have understood my character, and still want to be my friend

Then Now you are eligible to message me . Yayyy 

In the end , I hope I find my place in this huge community and feel less of an outcast ❤❤