Please reassure me.
Today I spiraled mentally and I'm still feeling it. I've been hurt and rejected so many times in the past. I wasted so much time in life chasing false hopes and getting distracted by conditional love that would never last. Nobody figured out what I needed. Nobody saw to it that I could rely on myself and stand on my own two feet. I've been a reasonable person. I've listened and listened to so many people so many times. It scares me how self interested people have been. I've had to be my own hero, but even with that I still crumble. Also I've started chatting with a girl I really like and I just don't feel good enough. I want to give her my best but I am so needy sometimes I'm scared I will let her see that side of me. I live alone. All I need is a caring hand. Someone to keep me company or check up on me to make sure I'm okay. I don't feel like anyone really recognises my needs.