Childhood Abuse..
This took place while I was a child.. I'm 30 now, I've moved 1,700 miles away from the problems..
For context.. my dad wasn't a nice man.. he wasn't a drunk or a drug user by any means just under a lot of stress.. so when he got home from work (Iron working) all day he would come home and usually iwas the first person he found.. and he would beat me.. belts, switches.. you name it he probably used it.. I survived obviously.. but my issue isn't letting go of what happened.. it's trying to cope with I'm never going to be good enough for him.. that as his only daughter to him and my brothers I mean nothing. I have lived where I am now for almost 6 months and the only person I have heard from is my mother. Thats it.
Look what I want to do is send him a letter.. just telling him my feelings.. but I know it won't change anything.. he would probably just blame it on me tell me it was all my fault because I failed in school.. and because my room was never clean.. if home wasn't horrible maybe I would have done better in school.. maybe if I didn't get beat for what my brothers didn't do.. I wouldn't feel like I do..
I need opinions.. or advice I'm open to any of it.. Someone to talk to about it all.
Thanks for reading.